Some people needed to be scolded to wake up .
Some people needed to be hurt to wake up .
But all some people need was just recognition .
After months and years of complaining . After reading all those posts and pictures about how great our parents are , I was giving in to reality . I know I love them . But what I hated was how they treated me . I was devastated . I was dumbfounded . "How could they ever treat me this way ?", "My life was unfair." , "my life sucks ." Minutes passed after and I was regretting all of my actions . But things like this just keeps repeating itself . I've always been out late , hating whatever I have . Trying to avoid everything ... But the only thing I've never realized throughout all this was ,
They miss me .
Today , like few days back , the haze is hitting hard . I thought "are they all alright? They're working in the haze without mask. Please keep them safe cause I love them" .
Dad came home feeling very tired whereas me , was feeling so lazy and stressed that I'm home . I was so mad he ordered me around . Then he started joking to us and suddenly , he smiled at me . I was shocked cause it's probably a few years since I saw him smiled , at me . I stared hard at him and thought to myself "his weary eyes from working all day , he lost a tooth which I didn't even noticed cause I haven't been seeing him . I failed my duty as a daughter , so much . Mum has been asking for hugs the last week due to strength , and I wasn't sure of how to give it to her . I'm a loser"
Dad told me to help him with his phone , to insert songs into his memory card , to come home for dinner , to stay at home . Mum told me to be home for dinner , to stay home . All these cause they miss me . And they wants to spend more time with me but Yet all I thought was that why were they restricting me from going out .
I ran back to my room and cry so badly .
So I went to get some chores done before hiding back into the room as I can't control my tears . A knock came on my door , "hurry out to finish your dinner. Its gonna turn cold" "ok" that's all I can say , ok .. before the tears fall off my face .
I'm sorry for everything dad . I'm sorry for everything mum . I love you 2 ♡
