Happy birthday daddy ♡

Happy birthday daddy .

Sorry for being the worse daughter.
Sorry for not coming home early today.
Sorry for not being able to spend time with you.
Sorry for always making you mad.
Sorry for not paying much attention to you.
Sorry for every wrong thing I've done.

I love you, you know that too.
I'd grant you your wish if I could.

I miss those times we spent almost everyday together. And times when I can just run over and grab your hand because that's the safest place I can be. And sometimes you'll just carry me in your arms. The look on your face is one of my wishes, I would want to see them again.

I remember how excited I was to just even start the wiper on your van, spotting different colour cars, watching sports together and counting cameras on the highway when we're heading home at night.

I still yearn for your hug, and to see you smile. To spend time together like we used to. Having short dinners, spending the whole day out or just a short walk to the nearby coffee shop.

I can't help but cry whenever I think of you. Cause I felt like over never done my job as your daughter. I'm crying as I typed this. Trying so hard to dry my tears.
I'm sorry once again, I love you. I always do. Thank you for still loving me.

Your precious girl,
Mei ♡

Telling myself I can do better

Like any hardworking girlfriend,  I am waiting for love to finish his napfa and looking after their bags . Please pass. It hurts me to see you having aching body for the pass few weeks. And I can't do much to help.

As of now the boys, including jiaqi and binghui just finished their pullups. And all the way at my side I can hear the other participants cheering for each other earlier on. Such a nice sight.

Okay idk which station they're at now :/ they probably finished at the speed of light cause their the first 3 in line (I suppose)

And there are quite a number of girls raking napfa (surprisingly) and here I am. Why aint I doing anything about my thighs? I should have more motivation.  Hopefully I'll start exercising after my running shoe arrives. And I'll most probably start with cardio exercises first. But then again, hopefully I'm not lazy.

Tests , quizzes and assignments cramping in these 2 weeks. I'm feeling sooo lazy to do anything about itttt :( but I can't slack anymore. Just a few more months till this sem is over. I can't afford to take any wrong move. Jiayou !

Now for a girls things ~~ lalalala . And I shall continue playing 'voro' which I downloaded on bby's itouch !

Till then !

Those hindering thoughts

I don't have a right to speak. For when I speak I'll always be wrong.

I can't take much rest, for I always have to do the chores.

I want to leave this place, but I can't.

I don't want to hurt those I love,  hence I'm hurting myself. And I still tell myself it's alright. I'm this useless and stupid.

I want a break, a break from everything .

Xoxo

The little things

Time passes so fast in a blink of an eye I'm already at sem 3.2 .

November have been an extreme roller coaster ride for me . But still , I'm very absolutely glad that I have a wonderful boyf that will pull through it all with me .

Ended 1st november with dinner at boyf's after fetching his parents home from airport (did i mention his parents have been away from 22nd night and he have access to the car for 2 weeks ? It feels damn good to not wait for bus after a long day in school) and had my starbucks cravings satisfied :D Bby's mum even bought me a gift ^^ double date with shaun & ange on the 2nd for《Thor: The Dark World》 . Satisfied my cravings for jap cuisine and starbucks and definitely as well as my first visit to EwF . Work on the 3rd , shall not speak much about this .

Weekdays is as usual ; studying , preparing for projects . Met up rijocol on Tuesday for lunch before school starts . ToriQ for dinner on our 27th (Wednesday) and we both coincidentally wore red . Online shopping with bby on thursday cause my pay was in . I should really control my spending if I still wanna head overseas :( Supper with the boys on friday night , headed off to tay's house for movie when the tire got punched in the middle of PIE . And it was 1am . Decided to camwhore cause it was a once in a million chance . HAHAH .  Bby's dad and uncle came down to 'rescue' us . It was seriously funny considering the fact that it was the second tire burst in the week for bby and me . Apparently the front left tire got punched on the 4th . And it was the back left tire on the 10th . Boyf was about to go crazy , hahah !  Cabbed down to shaun's after probably an hour on the highway . Watched hangover 3 like finally and left for home at 4am .

Went out to buy lunch and stock up snacks at bby's house and it rained so heavily :( thank goodness I didn't get caught that badly . Now that I'm home already , I really need my sleep .

Good night xoxo