th 195 times asking ,

Can.I.Love.You.Forever? (L)

HELLOS ! HOHOHO , sorry for mia-ing for so long .

th rehearsal was so fun lahs , th 20 of us , bonded [:

this week was normal , exams were sucky .

got back physics , its was quite of a border line luhs ._.

nxt week goin have ssp everyday alrdy . veh tired luhs .

ltr not sure if goin out and meet nephew . LOLS !

im finally relaxed abit from everything tht hav happened .

oh well , i need a job ! help me find anyone ? [:

blog-hopping ard , just feeling super duper bored lahs .

smsing with LH now , he damms blurr lahs . laughs .

met up with LY & LH ytd , was so damms crazy las . funny bodohs .

alrights , shall stop . there's gonna be a new mem in th house soon .

its th maid , wonder how she's like . im scared of her :x

lols , i've gone bonker lahs , emotionally unstable this few days .

so if i've offended anyone , im seriously sorry . really !
mummy , i knw you care , i know you're working veh hard outside .

i wan a job & you know tht , you said i'll be veh tired . but i dont care .

you say you wan me go tuition . now this family is having so much prob .

sis & bro dont wan help . thn let me . i dont care how hard its gonna be .

im part of th family , i wan to help . no matter wht , i wan to support th family .

i know i've been complaining how hard CCA is , its not hard at all .

i dont quite like CCA , thts all , i dint tell you . cause you wan me to be in it .
i dont wan see you sad , cause i know you're also stress , more stress thn me .

mummy , plsplsplspls , if there's anything i can help , tell me . i'll help .

i'll try to find a job ard th vincinity . and help with th finance in th family .

im th one who splurge alot on irrelevant items . im sorry , but i'll change .

i know mostly every mth i'll be bursting my bills , and daddy'll scold .

i'll cope even if i cant , i'll help look aft this family . i'll do anything for you all .

i know i havent been good this few days , complaining abt CCA and stuffs .

i know it does piss you off . im dumb to not follow instruction carefully .

im stubborn as i also do things my own way . i know all this . i know everything .

i know daddy is working late & hard for this family . he never complain .

but he's tired everytime he coems home , so at times , he'll go out and drink .

i dont blame him . he buys food home even if its late , cause he know we'll be hungry .

he seldom scold at home , he's keeping everything in him , its hard but he'll try .

MUMMY ! DADDY ! I LOVE YOU ! trust me , i'll support this family (L)

Russell: Yay a happy waffle is a delicious waffle!. but ur still inedible.
:: HEY ! but im still a waffle , Haas [:
Weiling: eh your heading der chinese words gt mistake lah !!
:: really , din notice , thnks for telling [:
yuxiang: OMG I CAN SEE YOUR TAGBOARD HAHAHA. no need change blogskin liao
yuxiang: but i'm going to ask you to change your blogskin anyway just to irritate you ^^,
:: evil ! lols , hmms , im gonna irritate too . but idk how ._.
yinqqinq(: oh here's your tag (: takecares! Cya in sch [:
:: cya in sch too ! [:
Siewhua: Hello bigg one (: Tagged takkaires (:
:: HELLO SMALL ONE ! [: you take care too ! (L)

DARILYN ,

lost & found , now im inferior .
FakeASmile ; FeignALove ; FreeALife ; FindAGuy .

not th same as you , im just

Perfectly , imperfect [:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARENCE KKH !!

HEY READERS ! im so in a high mood today alrights ?
went to visit granny just now , uncle drive us there .
thn was at there from 11.45 till 1.145 [: HOHOHO .
Bro was being a monkey in public & he ask aunt to buy things . .
ohwell , went home thn , cousins drove us home [:
told mummy , she made a small rant at me , but i dont blame her .
it felt weird as first , but well , she has to look aft sis at home .
she thn sms me telling me i've change my attitude by lot [:
and yes , i've to thnks everyone who was there for me , changing me .
but there's someone i really had to give a big gratitude to [:
The Person is Kaijie . yes , its him .
His last message was to ask me to change . and i kept it till now .
His previously 'negative comments' increases on my toleration & patience [:
His Recent 'shh' has become th strength of keeping silence .
His 'taking away my comfort zone' told me not to be selfish , and to think of others .
His 'happy-go-lucky ness' taught me to cope with things no matter wht .
His 'Never give up' gave me pretty much motivation in life.
and yes , he was th biggest help in my change of attitude and thinking [:
THANK YOU VERY MUCH !!! [:
Other thnks ::
to Russell who keep giving super sarcastic remarks tht pissed me off .
but his jokes to cheer me up , Thnks alot RUSSELL ! [:
And to HanRou , Feli , cherie & more , who was there to cheer me and accompany me .
and yes , common test is starting from tml .
i guess i wouldn't be on9 till wed , which marks th end of it .
or mayb till fri , as i've to rest for th rehearsal at RP on thurs , 5pm-12mn [:
tight schedule , and holidays practice is also finish scheduling ._.
can bang wall die lahs , gosh lehs , stress stress , but i know how to cope [:

went to sch web , saw Xcountry photos , its damms UNGLAM okays ? ._.

Hmms , eng & physic on mon . e maths & chem on tues . A maths & SS on wed ...
ohwell , better end here , cause darrel's gonna complain my chunk of words ._.
and i've to prepare dinner , clean th house and revise , im like th maid -,-

Brandon: Please waffle i to entertain me not you ..
:: LOLS , but anw , you cheered me up [: thnks [:
Jia Wei: i doubt i will bully her..
:: Good [: last long long okays ? [:

DARILYN ,
thnks for everything you've done [:

if only i could change life ,

Thn everything will be Just fine . (L)


hellos everybody ! as can see , im back [:
Sch was as normal . like always :x
BUT RUSSELL'S GOIN OVERBOARD !!!!!!!
wed went to hall to see camp videos , mr pang gave one to me [: YAY .
household , sch and many more is stressing me up . im goin crazy .
times really flies , and many do changes , alot i shld say .
yes , im like veh emo and sad in class recently , due to stress i suppose ?
BRANDON CHICKY ! thnks for cheering me up in class yeas ,
you rocks mans ! well , start waffle-ing more . Haas :x thnks & ILY !
thy've changed in their heart , their character and many more .
reminisce th past no longer has its use ? as th past will never come back .
hoping tht everything was still as fine , but its impossible .
thy've changed , and nth anyone could do to bring thm back .
Darleng , dont sad alrdy okays ? no matter wht happens , i'll stand by your side .
like hw you stand by me , i'll nvr leave you to face thm alone . alrights ?
always rmb , im just 8 numbers away from you [: ILY !
getting ready for Common test next week , i've yet to prepare .
GOSH !! how to survive ? yes , and i've to buck up . I MUST !!!
Darrel & Alicia , dont sad alrdy alrights ? i'll start praying for thm [:
stay strong , cause thy'll nvr want to see you 2 sad [: alrights ? ILY !!!
suppose im typing too long ? alrights , shall end , NUFFNANG (L)
cya [: study hard [:

LF: U reply wrongly huh ?
:: kinda , too tired tht day ._.
yinqqinq: hahs(: do link me ups? xD thks thks cya in sch! [: takecarres!!!
:: sure do [: cya [:
zihow: haha lol no offence LF, but since when you became a lady? tagged.
:: Sorry lahs :x i tot he's not male anw , no offence :x
YiXian: SinHui, where you get the Before leaving pictures, i dun have leh....
:: th CD luhs [:
Darrel: HAHA yes ah! I be parapazzi, go stalk TYK
:: Good idea [: i support you !!!
edmund: ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR COMMON TEST SWEETIE.
:: erms , okays .
ERNEST: PASSSSSSSSEDBY {!}
:: LOLS ! i'll PASSYOU BY [:

DARILYN ,
i've learn to be strong , i've learn to love .

& yes . im tryna moving on ,

Without You , Honeyest . (L)

Before Leaving [:

Before Leaving [:

Before Leaving [:

Before Leaving [:

Before Leaving [:

CampFire night [: our performance [:

Ladys [:

Siva , Me , Joyah & Haz [i know i look weird]

Ldr Siva & Taifiq W/ Haz & Joyah [:

Camp Kaizen ! [:

Nice view once again [:

Check it out , TYK & fiq [:

Waterfall [:

Nice view uhhs ?

HOHOHO ! im back , as like, FINALLY , haas .
YAY ! JUST RECIEVED CAMPS PHOTO FROM MDM KOH !!!

all these is just 1/5 of all th camp photos [: I LOVE MDM KOH !

I MISS CAMP ! I MISS HAZ & JOYAH ! I MISS CAMP KAIZEN !!!
Monday's a long day . normal lessons , ssp , CCA . no life ._.
and its so so so damms mood changing due to something .
shan't elaborate , today wasn't a day either .
sch , ssp from like 1-3 , damms lahs , lucky no CCA .
but there's a ton of homework waiting for me , us .
there's SS , A Maths , chinese , and so on . yeahs .
im not gonna type much if not darrel is gonna say im chunking my post w/ words ._.
3 more weeks till i change my phone & subscribers .
number ? dont think so , i wan my current num . Hees [:
ohwell , every good things have its price yeahs ? Haas .
most prob will be mia-ing , so contact me thru phone ?
no worries , i'll be back to check on blogger every few days ?
i ain't evil , i love my blog ALOT [: laughs , im dumb i know .
Rou , Ying , Fel , thnks for listening , once again , i've confided in you 3 again [:
thnks alot for listening & cheering me up , i really need those .
and yes , ILY !! to th max !! smiliest for all [: hurrays !
many tght i was strong , so did i , but once again , i was dumbfold by th truth .
shocking news i've heard sist told me ytd whn i reach home .
i was freak up sad . Mummy , Daddy im sorry . I LOVE YOU !
alrights , shall end here . im breaking down lahs . lethargic man ._.
ohwell , had to survive life [: this hard ship aint hurting much in th long run .
its gonna help me , many matter aint gonna affect me in th long run .
this is just some obstacles in life i've to face [: bye readers ! NUFFNANG !! (L)

LF: Link u already la. if not later u cry ...
:: thnks lady [: love ya
Georg: Hello!
:: hellos !
yanheng: nevermind
:: Lols ?
Jaslynnn :x: dearrrr. wer gt sweet zzz lol. don anyhw say lols
:: opps , sorry lahs :x
Ivan: WHAT SWEET !! IS BITTER ! remove !!!!!!!!!
:: okays . relacs :x
yinqqinq♥: hello..tagged(: rmb me?? hahas takecares see youu[:
:: yeaps , how can i forget you ? HOHOHO [:
Jaslynnn :x: lLOLS ! no la. i see ppl take flower my heart nv break ar haha :]
:: lols , i also , put fun cause VDay marhs :x haas . (L)

DARILYN ,
th truth has come to light , guess i've to make up my mind , sorry .

''Its Not The Same anymore ,

Cause i've truly woke up from my dream ''


edited*
well , VDay is over , and yes , im missing it .
Me & ahdear did smth stupid ytd , th whole time we're out .
we spy on ppl who has flower & it was so sweet okays ?
spied on group (how many female & male.) and we were absolute happy .
and yes , althou we were happy , our heart inside is breaking .
Dear , i pei you sad , pei you cry okays ? dont forget im just 8 numbers away alrights ?
went bloghopping , im happy knowing many friends had so much fun ytd .
and some have deleted their blog , sad uhhs ? but well , nvm .
no matter wht , i've bought wht i have to , and im gonna do wht i have to .
if he's not gonna accept , i've abosolutely no objection . cause i cant control him .
if i've alrdy done wht i've to , im alrdy glad tht i've done my part [:
but idk how to pass/give him lehs . LOLS , i know i veh stupid ._. erzi ,
if meeting me was a beautiful mistake , thn time would heal our wounds .
and if th future you still feel happy whn you think of me , it'll be worth th while .
obsessing w/ 2 songs now , S.H.E - anjing le ; S Club 7 - Say Goodbye [:
CCA , tml aft sch , shld i go ? im 101% tired lahs , gosh ! ._.
haihs , SYF coming , RAWRS , go jiu go bahs , come home sleep luhs :x
im getting lazier by th day , jialat lahs , IM MUS BUCK UP LAHS !
haihs , haven touch on th homeworks , cause i really dk how to do .
and th eng discursive , i also dk lahs , no one tell me exactly wht to do -,-
dangs lahs , so damms sick this few days , but lucky is not serious one lahs [:
there's PE tml , gonna die alrdy lahs , tml shld be play games ? for th dk wht .
suddenly forget lehs , jialat liaos worhs , STM veh jialat alrdy ._.
COMPANION ! u say u go home call me . u kuku lahs , so long nvr reach home ._.
RAWRS , fine fine fine , end here bahs , go seek help from some humans [:
Haas , i wan go out & hyper & craze with A-B-C-D-E-F-H-I !!!!

K@! J!3: don dare to put my name? don dare then dare put la
K@! J!3: i not your erzi anymore, can disown u?
:: its not i don dare okays , its because i know you angry w/ me , tht why . i wan to put , because i cant get you off my mind , i dont know if this ever occurs to you , but it really hurts okays ? i've nvr had th heat of wanting to quarrel with you , or to be angry with you . its not wht i wanted okays ? i know many things happen due to my attitude and character , i know , but it may take me a long time to change , because this is th real me . and yes , im guilty for th past and so on . im really sorry for everything tht has happen . siva's panda hand is an accident , but th rest is he tear himself one , so its not my fault . idk wht you gonna think aft seeing this , but i've no intention to quarrel with you alrights ? no comments , 如果你像这样，那我也无话可说。但我只想告诉你，对不起。
yanheng: since when i say i your kor?
:: Huhs ?

mus everything turn out this way ?
DARILYN ,
i dont think it'll ever occur to you how much it hurts me ...
也许我错了，也许我们不必这样子，亲爱的儿子，对不起，我爱你。

Quiz-rific [:

Quiz from HuiYi Xingans [:
1. Besides your lips, where is the favourite spot to get kissed?
:: cheeks ? im not sure [:
2. How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
:: lethargic .
3. Who was the last person you took a photo with?
:: does class counted ? if yes , it was ytd with 3E3 . if not , 12 days ago w/ pubor & loveable .
4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
:: kinda :x
5. Would you ever donate blood?
:: most prob , yes .
6. Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?
:: yes , and i LOVE him ! i cant forget him .
7. Do you want someone dead?
:: kinda , yes .
8. What does your last text message say?
:: IvanT asking is sinhui's my name :x
9. What are you thinking right now?
:: this him & tht him . sister & my probs .
10. Do you wish someone be with you right now?
:: absolutely .
11. what is the time you went to sleep last night?
:: 12.05 . LOLS ! midnight :x cause i stayed till VDay is over .
12. where did you buy the t-shirt you are wearing now?
:: idk :x forget alrdy :x
13. is someone on your mind right now?
:: yes ,
14. who was the last person who texted you?
:: IvanT [:

10 people tagged to do this quiz.
(1) Alicia
(2) TingFang
(3) Darrel
(4) Sara
(5) Casandra
(6) Jolyne
(7) YanHeng
(8) Damien
(9) JingYi
(10)KaiJie

15. who is 2 having a relationship with?
:: (TingFang) Me [: joking :x
16. is 3 a male or a female?
:: (Darrel) Male.
17. If 7&10 get together, will it be a good thing?
:: (YanHeng&Kaijie) Thy are good friends [:
18 What is number 1 studying about?
:: (alicia) Same as me [:
19. when was the last time you had a chat with them?
:: all of thm ? depends , some ytd , some seldom now ...
20. is number 4 single?
:: (Sara) Yes.
21. say something about number 2?
:: (TingFang) She's my Pubor :x (L)
22. what do you think about number 3 & number 6 being tgt?
:: (Darrel&Jolyne) impossible . shhs .
23. Describe number 9.
:: (JingYi) She's my darling.s ! she's in love & i love her ! [:
24. what will you do if number 6 and 7 fights?
(Jolyne&Yanheng) do thy even know each other ? :x
25. do you like number 8?
(Damien) My Bro lehs [:

If i could just turn th hands of time .

unglam :x

sweet ? :x

unglam :x

was asked to censor :x

emo-ing [:

Back again , HOHOHO !! used comp till 1 just now .
wanted to go back to sleep , but thn ahdear call me .
she asked if i wanna go AMK hub w/ ahlu & lexy , LOLS !~
i agreed , so met up with her , but before tht , met w/ ahlu .
thn smth happened , in th end , trained to compass and meet ahdear .
Jalan ard action city , thn saw jiajun outside mini toon .
so i chatted w/ him awhile . thn went back in to find JASLYN ahdear .
jiajun was waiting fro jiawei to come , thn buy things give *ahem* .
so we 3 went to comic connection & shop shop , LOLS !
thn lexy say he sick wan go see doc , ahlu was pissed off man .
thn saw jiajun stll waiting , so i hlp him give a call to jiawei , LOLS !
jiawei say he reach alrdy , so well , hung up , thn go interchange .
we were looking for a companion for ahlu , thn i rang up someone .
dial wrong num , thn become call ahlu , me and ahdear laugh like mad .
thn rang up ivan tan , he veh zai luhs , say okays .
so we went & mos burger [: disturb ahlu till he cant take it .
thn go out , come in for few times , laughs , funny luhs .
finish eating , go walk ard some shop , cause ahdear wan buy presents .
ahlu was sabo-ed to see obscene stuff , me & ahdear laugh till peng !
went to artbox & mini toons , thn ahvan came . LOLS !
ahlu wan buy present give his mama , ask wan buy pig , tortise or cow .
Pig = saying his mama is pig , Tortise = saying his mama is tortise .
thn cow = saying his mama got niu pi qi . me , ahdear and ahvan laugh like mad .
thn he also bought a HP pouch give his mama , cost quite a bomb :X
thn left , say th dk jane tan (?) thn whn reaching bus stop , saw mrs quek .
louis complain say why so many tcher at AMK , thy stay near mehs ??
thn disturb ahdear while waiting for bus , thn reach hougang .
me & ahlu alighted , ahvan pei ahdear go SK thn come to hougang .
veh sweet horhs ? thy wear same color shirt also lehs :x
'played' in th bus , thn laugh like mad also , veh fun .
Thnks to th 3 of thm, my VDay is not lonely [:

dear , dont sad alrdy okays ? i know you love him alot , i can understand how you feel .

dont sad , i'll always be 8 numbers away frm you , ILY !

TAGGS REPLIES =
Jinyi: Happy Valentine Day too! : D
:: yes , to you too . last long & (L)
edmund: HAPPY VALENTINE DAY SWEETIE
:: yes , too you too [:
LF: I dun wanna link u can ?
:: erms , i think its alrights ?
PEARLYN: Haha, yeah i didnt forget you, i still remember, LOL (: Taggggs :)
:: HOHOHO , good uhhs , [: happy Vday !
Jolyne(:: HAPPY VALENTINES DARRRR~ love uuuu....
:: to you too dar ! (L) last long uhhs [: he bully you tell me :x

DARILYN ,
i wish none of this has happened and tht everything will be bck to normal (L)

Happy Valentines My Dear , Friends [:

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO ALL !


Yes , its so damms early now lahs , not used to it .
was ordered to wake up to look aft granny ....
why cant sis do it siols ? i everyday so early wake up .
Haihs , life's super duper hard for me okays ?
been so damms sick lahs , but forget it , used to being sick .
He would surely care if i were sick , and if this was th past .
but now , everything's so diff now , so hard to stay happy .
but well , i would never forget there's still beloved sister by my side .
ohwell , in fact wht i wan to do on mon , its still un confirm .. ]:
std , dear , M sist and pubor know , but thy dont know th plan yet lahs .
im still confused on shld i do it anot lahs , blurr blurr blurr (!)
RAWRS ! dang it lahs , who can actually help me ? help ??
im so damms tired i can lie on my bed and SLEEP !
like wht i did ytd , i was super lethargic , i wanted to nap on my bed .
in th end , woke up by daddy , cause he bought food back [:
ate and went back to dreamland , gosh man , im fat , once again !
was yawning while typing , alrights , i wan go play games , post ltr [:
cya , nuffnang !! thnks alot sweetest [:


DARILYN ,
its hard to forget someone you once love deep down your heart .
its a torment , why mus you do this to me ? i wan you back , seriously .

if this happiness belongs to us .

3e3 ! [:

Helina & taufiq w/ trophy [:

see where thy sit :x

see th crowded bus :x

VALENTINES IS JUST TML !!

HELLO !! im home , finally from this very very long day [:
sch was fine today , nearly scared th wits out of mrs tan :x
gave mdm koh , ms shen & mra tan VDay cards tgt w/ gans [:
Siva , sorry for flaring up at you , din mean it , SORRY !
sch ended at 11.20 as we need to make our way to bedok reservior [:
stay back to settle some matters and yeahs ,
thn bus to hougang w/ louis and darius [:
changed & went to louis , create chaos w/ darius .
darius almost broke everything he touch at louis :x
bus to oppo punggol park , met up w/ lex , eelin and edward .
adeline cant be contact & miss 2 bus cause of shawn .
was reluctant to wait for him and we board bus , thn he alighted :x
reach pasir ris thn , walk to bus no. 21 there , so many ppl lahs .
saw josson & hafifi [: funny luhs thm , bully me :x
th bus was filled with SKSS humans , it was super noisy :x
reach , and was late by 15min , gosh ! lols , but there's still ppl who's late :x
played with std & co before race [:
warm up & stretch with small one & pubor [:
wanted to run w/ thm , but i broke down ._.
so i run , jog and walk , poor stamina okays ?
cher say got water every 1km , cheat my feeling lahs !
i need water lahs ! so tired okays ? thn yes , i've gain energy .
whn i saw siva , was abit flared up & decided to chiong .
fine , i got 80 for ranking , its was so far away okays ?
but since it was th whole upper sec ladys , it was good .
baobei got 5 , huifang got ?? , pubor got 18 .
std got 45 , and so on so far , LOLS ! HR got 100++ .
chatted w/ seekei , thn played ard with her .
during prize presentation , sat at th front ,
w/ junjie , huiqi , poorathy & of cause , seekei .
thn we chatted till someone , LOLS , its was our secret [:
prize for all th top 10s , GRATS TO BRENDA & HUIFANG !!!!
thn health and wellness , GRATS TO ZONG XUAN !!!!!
good job to everyone also [: i know i did badly :x
thn champion class , i bet on 3E3 ! seekei on 3e1 & junjie on 3e5 .
AND AND AND AND !!! OBVIOUSLY 3E3 WON !!! YAY !!!
mdm koh and th 3e3's were super duper extreme high lahs ! happy also .
thn photo w/ a quarter of 3e3 , its was so great mans !
bus-ed to century Sq w/ std and co , went shopping w/ std only .
HF and ... left , and liyu & ... go eat . so me and std went shopping .
went to th bluez and bought rings [: hees , im in love with HFSC !!!
thn met up w/ louis , manda & dear [: we like kindergarten in comics connection :x
thn met up w/ liyu & ... waited for bus thn .
SORRY STD ! have to pangseh you , sorry ILY !
chatted w/ th 2 of thm on bus , sorry to louis , neglected him :x
thn ate , bath , now here , ohwell , hope you enjoy th photos [:

shld i give him (insert item) or shld i not , im so confused .

its not my fault , but i dont wan this to happen also ]: how ?!?

ohgosh , dang it , anyone pls tell me ! i really wan everything back to normal .

but he's not he's not , he opposing me in every way ! HELP !!!!


Thnks JingYi darling.s for your present [:
Thnks Helina Stead for your card and ring [:
Thnks Jaslyn Dear Dear for you card [:

Thnks HuiYi xinggans for her motivation [:
Thnks Seekei silly For you VDay secret [:

casandra-babyily: welcome [: good to hear tht !

DARILYN ,
i so wanna do my best , but you just keep on destroying my efforts .

i really wanna change , but you keep on disallowing me to T_T

如果时间能从来，我会让你知道，我不能没有你。我会让时间停留在我们之间唯一的快乐。

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LIM JIA HE !!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANDREW YEK JIA WEI !!

COUNTDOWN : 2 MORE DAY TO VALENTINES !


HELLOS , woke at normal time today and saw mummy's note .
she say i cant go sch today , cause she wan bring me see doc .
but well , IM FINE ! i did not have any illness or virus in me !
okays , i just took blood test for 2 things ._.
1 tube is for hep B and 1 tube for th DF , pain can ?
thnks for kuku , HR , mdm koh , and those who care .
meaning to just call me up or jus sms , im weird i know .
but really , kuku , thnks alot uhhs , i know u'll help me .
its not like bS , bK and bD , thy are like gosh cans ?
RAWRS ! i so wanna cry cans ? mygosh lahs !
today is th cele for VDay in school . yes , sweet .
but i've missed it ! im veh guilty and sad for not atending sch .
i've no chioce either , mummy scared i run go sch , so nvr wash uni .
i wan to go sch ! but its too late now ... its too late .
cliques & loves , out on VDay and cele again ? ILYA !
i'll feel happy if you all did , even thou idk if you all had fun .
i dont mind drawing circles seeing you all so happy ...
althou doc says im normal , but i dont feel th same way .
now i nearly burn th house , boil water thn i nearly fall aslp ...
im recently very dissapointed with some ladys . dont wanna say .
ohwell , broading over it doesn't bring me happiness either .
mummy cook spagetti for lunch [: its delicious !
mummy's gonna be home late today , so will daddy ?
grandma is now at th day care centre with aunt .
she'll be home ard 4 i think . she's goin there everyday .
loveable , honeydew and small one ! sorry , cant pei you all go sch ..
munching on wang wang now . having th urge for bubble tea .
any kind soul just get it for me ? i wan some sweet stuff now .
sch has just been dismissed at 2.20 , i miss thm lahs ,
practically , EVERYONE I KNOW , even kaijie & all , okays ?
i dont actually hate thm , thy just pissed me off and also ,
i find their wrong doings VERY VERY childish , gawds .
seems kuku & co ain't coming over to hear my heart talks uhhs .
but i know he'll be home & calling me , but not sure wht time [:
heaven's ! i've been on9 for like an hour and th msn is so dead ._.
hopped to childhood's blog [: he seems to found a lover ehhs ?
he'll be killing me once he see's this , HUIJIA (L) ALSON [:
okays , i'll end here first bahs , i suppose , HOHOHOH .
im hungy [: run th whole kitchen down !!


DARILYN ,
if only valentines was for me and you .

GCR day ; wht do you acctually mean ?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO G.CHONGRUI !!!!!


Hey yes , once again , im back again [:
and yes , im feeling so much much better okays ?
mus really thnks this kuku lahs , listen to me (L)
and i also know tht kuku veh confused now .
KUKU ! cause i dont wan state you name here lahs .
dont sad alrdy okays ? i'll be sad if you're sad okay ?
my probs is a big big matter hard to settle , but i can help you with yours .
okays ? so dont sad anymore hao mahs ? smiles smiles smiles !
althou we both nearly cry today , but we'll be there for each other okays ?
i know this week hasn't been well for me and you lahs .. T_T
laopo & dear & darling.s , dont cry alrdy okays ? smile !
yes , seeing thm cry makes me cry , and i nearly made kuku cry .
kuku , im sorry , i still am unable to control my emotions well .
lets wish each other th very best okays ?
went to mac this morning and darrel made all of us laugh like mad .
all of us refers to alicia , siew hua , TYK and me .
he did some rather dumb things & was bullied by alicia . Haas .
all support alicia , thn yikai also bully darrel , funny luhs !
thn went back to sch , Haas , went mad with HuiFang [:
thn listen cher crap , help buddies do things luhs .
had our e maths 1st test and re test back today .
1st test - 7/16 , retest - 13/16 . okays , i passed [:
thn ms shen was rather angry and pissed off today ?
had endless fun with HR during chinese lesson , laughs .
Thnks to HanRou , SiewHua , felicia , darleng and YuXiang [:
thy all helped me w/ smth , and im grateful . thnks alot humans [:
CME was scolding session , fyi , I DONT BLAME ANYONE !
thn it ws SS , gosh , i din pay attention . cause i dont understand :x
im unable to concentrate in class , OMF , im just so dead .
and oh shxzxzt ! i just killed a kind soul's heart ._.
RAWRS ! i wanna cele VDAY w/ cliques A-B-C-D-E-F-H-I [AtoI]!!
but but but , i've yet to ask thm out . and i dont think its possible .
C , H and I kena booked alrdy luhs , say okays ? but nvm .
i'll ask thm again , i think AtoI gonna have G in alrdy [:
shhs , dont tell 1st , will update if having good news {:
VDAY IS JUST 3 DAYS AWAY ! GOSH ! CANT WAIT !
any presents for me ? or any roses for me ? [:
or anyone will be great enough to pass me their heart ?


i dont wan to quarrel w/ you or wht so ever okays ?
wht happen to bro was just an accident , i din wan it to happen too .
and today , i DIN sabo you w/ tht writing , you can ask .
i stated some things tht i saw which is according to bro's story .
fine if you dont believe me , cause i kow you dont .
shout , scold , insult , snatching friends ? for all i know ,
those are childish acts , i know cause i was once so childish .
and yes , i know my attitudde and character is very bad .
and yes , im changing , but thers smth tht many noticed .
many ask me wht happen to both of us , and thy told me your attitude & character were bad .
and i know im childish , im immature , but also , tht's my real self .
saying tht i was noisy during camp ? if it wasn't for th fun i had , i wouldn't be so crazy .
im not pushing th blame to anyone , but thts just my real self .
you've been with me for few mths , and you shld know .
okays , lets just make a deal , you tell me whts wrong and i'll owe you A favor ?
it fine if u wanna talk th conditions , its negotiable , my mind's flexible .

casandra-babyily: welcome (L)
zihow: will try , thnks [:
Yanpeng: huhs ?
Damien: your welcome , hope you've enjoy [:
Jlxyoh: thnks jie [: i know . (L)
Alson: Wb , you were gone for so long , my blog feel empty [:
BRENDA: yes ! &i know you know whts tht ! i'll try to cheer , ring me up alrights ? SMILES !

DARILYN ,
我不想要这样的。我只想把我们曾在一起的回忆刻下来。
难道我错了吗？无论如何，你还会是我最亲爱的儿子。

im actually needing comfort now .

As weird as can be , th 2nd post in a day ..
i ain't bored , im just missing my blog and thts it .
it seems tht i've been ruining my own life , i just hate it .
i dont have to guts to just lower down my pride by even a quarter .
im super sorry for all who have been there to comfort me .
althou its enough , but now , i need more as well , severe mood swing .
i've been silly , i've been stupid , i've been childish , i've been sucha whore .
im regreting wht i've done in th past and th 'SINHUI' in th past .
th ruthless me , th one who went ard scolding and hitting ppl .
insulting , critisizing , brainlessly making more humans hate me .
yes , i know , my attitude sucks alot , i wan a better me .
th one tht everyone will love , everyone will care for .
im being sucha slut , sucha F standard human , sucha failure .
i shld have known ... i need someone to scold my senses back to me .
If it was you , you would have done tht , wouldn't you ?
yeahs , if only if only , if i can go back to th past . if only ...
i've made the choice to leave you . but i kept on looking back.
Why does everything turns out this way ? I just can't understand.
am i totally wrong , or do you have some fault in it too ?
i've been so confused , so uber confused , im sorry abt everything i've done .
bleeding in and out of my heart , its hurting bad , so bad .
i dont think you can ever undestand th pain in my heart .
im like sick and no one care abt my death or not , im sick .
mummy , thnks for asking me to rest well , i'll try , MUMMY ILY !
im needing comfort now , can anyone just give me comfort ?
you said you wouldn't leave me . but i guess it was fake ?


Some memories tht i've rmb .



T'cher day 2008 ! [:
th 8 of us danced to our heart contents .



its was undescribeable fun & laughter[:
Was having chinese oral 2008 ! [:



Dec 2008 ! [:
studying tht ended out slacking.



Dec 2008 ! [:
On The way to bugis , [:




Mar 2008 ! [:
class outing , arcade & bowling .
@ kovan , went there right aft sch .






its been half year , hope to meet up soon .
miss th fun times we spent together [:

DARILYN ,
im sorry for eveything i've done , im really sorry .

neutral feelings , childishness still stay on .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MICHELLE !!!
HAPPY BELATED TO DAMIEN !!!

okays , as you can see , its MICHELLE hubby birthday today !
lets sing her a birthday song !! 1 , 2 , 3 , GO
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MICHELLE !!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !

Puffy Heart Necklace w/ black circle chain .

Hot Pink Carrier [:

Yes , and im back again , im posting daily for some reason .
A-B-C-D-E-F-H-I ! whts tht you may ask ..
glad to tell u , its my cliques , my new cliques .
happy figuring out th meaning [:
Hanrou , felicia we have splendid of fun today rights ?
Laughs , im happy and i know you 2 do [:
things happen today , not gonna take it to heart .
cause i dont wan to think so much upon stuff like tht .
OHOHOH ! SIVA BROTHER ! IM 100% SORRY !!! IT WAS AN ACCIDENT ._.
will buy you a new pencil case soon alrights ? super duper extreme sorry .
ohya , you still owe me my present , LOLS ! im petty :x
skipskipskip , okays fine , rewind rewind rewind , happy :x
having PE and mr raj wasn't here , ms neo took charge instead .
was feeling nauseous and have difficulty breathing and cold, idkw .
fine , i was weak alrights ? gosh , cant believe it , prob one aft another .
thnks loveable for running/jogging/walking during PE .
thn stayed in class during recess , was too sick to move ard .
unhappy things happened during eng , as mrs suresh was absent .
had retest aft sch , and i think im not gonna fair well , why .
my mind went blank , i've no mood to do anything ! trust me , its bad .
went to cp with loveable , pubor , small one , honeydew and nut .
saw darleng , deedy , HR and Felicia at KFC . thy finish eating , and was bullying me !
okays , thn SK , gulu gulu , camille and come other came .
okays , whn was 70% finish eating mrTYK came . LOLS !
cheers for him [: he was a very very smart candid-er ._.
there's plenty of candid shots in his phone :x not to say .
thn went to value$shop . thn nutty told me smth . and i told him another .
everything went quite fine , all went montip to buy super trios ring .
thn i felt a slight giddyness which was getting worse , so i left 1st .
sorry all , wasn't feeling well at tht time .
and also , if i've attituded anyone from start sch , pls forgive me .


你一声不想就离开我的身边，叫我如何对他人交待呢？
你说你已不再爱我，我可以谅解你，体谅你。
但请你同时也告诉我你不爱我的理由，可以吗？
虽然我们在一起的时间不短也不长，但我很快乐。
当然，你有离开我的念头，那我留你下来还有什么意义呢？
就当我在请求你，把你不爱我的理由说出口，
那么，也把我们曾经一起度过的回忆，统统忘掉吧。。。

Nicholas : Lols , Haas , [:
Darrel: Relacs lahs , so vulgar :x be refined [:
jophia: Kkaes [:
Ms Lela: nops , 2e4 [: saw you today , stay pretty [:

DARILYN ,
if wishes were horse , beggars would ride .

been goin hospital and home , went out early and home veh late , T_T
how tired can i be ? im have th rings ard my eyes .
EEYER ! not nice lahs :x Cries mans !
VDay is coming , and i've yet to save up to buy for my dearest stead .
HELINA FOO SHI CHING !~ and yes , I LOVE HER !
take her away and you'll pay ! TRY ME ! SHE'S MINE !


treat other how you wan thm to treat you back .
dont give way to misfortune , prevent misfortune !
Pleasure cant go in forever , for all thing changes .
As painful experience is not forgotten , for thy are careful for tht it doesn't happen again .
Real friends are those who remain friends whn in need of help [:
Forgive and forget , not to bring up things in th past .
Even th authorities cannot be cheerful whn having financial probs .
Cease to worry abt things tht can no longer be changed .
You can't change a person's real character .


yes , again , i've be quoting [: and this time , its more meaningful .
to me yes , to you , perhaps .
sorted out my mind , yes , i know i've said this many times .
but NO , this time , its different . its totally diff .
im strong now , i may fall , but not as often as th past .
i may look as th normal Sinhui , but deep in me , im darilyn .
it sound stupid i know , but i've set down my target to change .
cause this is not my real character , and i'll find it back !
No pain no gain , nothing ventured nothing gained .
&& May all couples last for eternity , shall your Vday be real sweet .


DARILYN ,
Faint Heart Ne'er won fair lady [:

i've gotta be strong , i've gotta be me [:

A' licia♥: sister cheer up, i arent good i know. i got attitude i know, but no matter what happen, i will be ther if you need me bah. ring me up uhs
loveable , im th one with attitude , i'll ring u , but hope u wouldn't discard me as i've bad attitude , you are th best lady ! ILY !
edmund: cheer up eh. if u need someone, i will always be there for u. u can call mi anytime..
edmund: no matter what happens, dun drop tears agn ok.
it depends , no 100% confirm .


Grandma is found 20-30 min aft she left house ,
im being guilty for not goin down with her .
why ? sister's bathing , brother is tooo young T_T
and yes , she is admitted to th hospital .
went to pan tai sui and went to find her .
i can sense tht she's really sad and lonely .
she keep telling me she's gonna die ,
and i keep saying no , asking her not to think tht much .
as i really cant afford to lose any loved ones anymore .
i really cant take anymore stress ._.
im tryin to be strong , and i'll be strong [:
i can be , i'll be , i must be . im equally fine now .
i haven finish my homework and i've no more time ?
gonna chiong uhhs ! ohwell , life's like this .
if i gotta achieve smth i wan , i've gotta love smth i love .
have to look at things from different angle .
thts life , no matter wht , so be prepare .
im speaking/typing like a weirdo ? Laughs .
have to go now , gotta save sister's blog .
her blog is having a serious prob , and im saving her :x
chatting with companion , his stating alot of facts .
althou it hurts my ears , but well , fact and i thank him for being there and helping me change [:
companion , YOU ROCK ! ILY lahs :p
yes , im gaining (insert word) ! and it will last ! wahaha :x


DARILYN ,
我学会了坚强，我学会了做自己，我学会了看你的心。
我明白了你心中的苦，我明白了很多人不明白的实事。
我会告诉你，我爱你，我想你，我要你，但如果你不想要回到我这里，我明白。

i need my superman !

edmund: HELLO! here to tag agn. HOW are YOU this few days?

fine .

im so depressed , im so tired , im so freaking weak okays ?

daddy's always home late , so late .

mummy's on work now , wouldn't be home till 9++ 10 ?
sister's either goes out or bug th comp .

brother's too young to be independent and is against everyhting .

granny's having symptoms of senile probs , she nearly burn th house and scold me 24/7 .

GOSH ! and with my own probs , my Homeworks , my CCA , my family , and my friends .

try being in my situation , you can bang wall and fly , and its stressful .

i'll collapse anytime soon , sister woke me in th middle of th night .

mother dont care and screams at me whn i told her tht .

im just tryna find a soul to talk to , and she screams at me .

its not like i don't do my work , my chores or bugg myself with th comp rights ?

why no one understands me ? why mus everyone i care and love leave me ?

why have i done exactly to have this disaster to befall me ?

why can't i turn th hands of time and just go back to th past ?

th past where im so happy with erzi and co , WHY ?!?

why mus i be th odd one out ? why cant i be like th rest ?

why am i crying everyday , everynight ? WHY WHY WHY ?!?

yes , i know im chunking my blog with words .

everyone have their soulmates to talk to , but mine , seems so far away , so far , its outta reach .

teardrops falling on my cheek while typing this .

i wan my super hero to save me , but i guess , im alone .

heart wrenching , my heart hurts alot bring in this situation .

erzi , if u see this , kindly just tell me th reason why u all are treating me like this .

cause i dont wan to run away from reality anymore , its so damms tiring .

everyone has all sorts of situation , but mine , may be th 1st you've ever came across .

aunt told me she couldn't find granny . WHT IS HAPPENING ?!?!

im so freak out now , can anyone just ring me up , to cheer me ?

argh , forgot you all have your own life ]':

DARILYN ,

why is this happening ?

What will I do if My Crush Were to fall in love with me .

i would be on cloud 9 , and hoping him to ask me out .
to watch the sunset together .
hope he'll be able to look me in the eyes and tell me he love me .
that his promises will never be broken .
be happy no matter what happens and never leave me .
And everyone around us will give us their blessing .
Chat with him through the night , Out with him in the day .
He'll be like the sun in the day , the stars in the night .
We'll be the sweetest candy , that is hard to resist .
We'll be the well known couple that no one dont know .
We'll be Happiest Lover forever and ever .
We'll be there for each other all the time .
We'll never leave each other , We never hurt each other .
Taking care of each other when one is sick/injured .
i'll be his sunshine , he'll be mine sky .
a place without boundaries and full of happiness .
making sure no quarrels come between us .
making sure we trust each other .
making sure our life together is 101% perfect .
making sure we're th best couples in th world .
making sure we wouldn't neglect them .
making sure our lifes blend together .
making sure our love is perfect [:

i'll be waiting for him no matter wht , i love you [:

i realise it , and i've gotta change .

Siewhua: lol.. eh .. i going to delete le -.-
Why wan delete ?
Guna: long time since i tagged. hopw all's fine.
Yes , its been sooo long ...

today was not a good day i suppose ?
ytd saved darleng , today save bball -,-
and my mood was like 6x worse thn normal ...
there goes th whole story ,
woke up at 1am , 4.55am and lastly 5.30am .
had a dream , it was wonderful , although i know it wouldn't come true .
thn wash up , prepare and went to sch .
met Honeydew & loveable as usual , [:
saw Siewhua small one on bus , LOLS .
thn chatted and went sch , sat with Pubor .
bought food and ate , cause i was hungry ._.
th mama sent a message . saying granny nearly burn th whole kitchen down .
and is sorta blaming me ? i was so freak up can ?
thn was moodless and went to bball court and find shawn .
chatted with him awhile and headed to find josson ,
but couldn't find him , so went to find stead .
chatted with her , thn i found out she was bothered by my probs .
so i dont wan to make her sad , and stead , thnks for your note ILY !
geog lesson passed away just like tht .
during e maths , ms shen wans everyone to get back to their seats .
i told Pubor , thn i think she no mood ?
i and told her of aft she did th same to me .
Pubor , im sorry , i really din mean to told u off .
i was just getting myself work up over my probs , sorry ...
russell was also sorta perhaps mayb told off by X .
cause X was kinda sorta perhaps mayb told off by me .
Russell , im sorry , i din wan this to happen also right ?
im truly sorry T_T
and also , got back a maths and e maths result .
it was atrocious okays ? GOSH !
e maths - 7/16 .
a maths - 13/20 .
i was so damms fed up can ? GOSH !
blah blah , lesson ended at 12.30 .
stayed at bball court with sugar and mei and nicole .
thn while ZC an co was playing , th bball flew in th field .
and it was like , LOCKED ! no one dare go in take .
fine , in order to just keep myself away from boredom .
i climb up , jump in , threw th bball out and jump out [:
jiawei , jeffrey , ZC & R was like WAH ! PRO luhs .
went to cp shortly , went shopping like no one else business .
LOLS , saw ziying there also , chatted and thn left [:
today , i mus really thnks some for sorta cheering me up .
BRANDON ! thnks alot ! for cheering me up .
he was joking and making me laughs .
although u keep say zsd , but it was enough [:
HAFIFI , your jokes is also booming th whole class .
you and taufiq is th wonderful jokers of e3 !
HELINA , thnks for listening to my heart ! ILY !

DARILYN ,
完美中的不完美，不完美中的完美。

ERZIERZIERZI!IMISSYOU!IWANTYOU!INEEDYOU!
ILOVEYOU!COMEBACKTOMEALRIGHTS?
chatting with gerald , hth with him also .
confide in each other , [:
thnks gerald , for listening to me [:
im getting very very sick and tired .
cause i really think too much .
sorry russell . haish ,
i rather go off to my bed now , nuffnang sweetest !
im off to beauty sleep & dreamland !

DARILYN .
hope you could just say it .

edmund: coz erm. frenz frenz ma. den i opps tell him lo. sorry eh...

nevermind , dont blame .

siewhua: lol, invite what?

siewhua: eh... paiseh accide

Siewhua: I mean accidentally press Go two times, paiseh -.-

Your blog , lols , [:

ytd's lesson wasn't very fun lahs [:
but aft sch was super duper fun lahs !
we bully edmund in a good way :x
thn soon came a superman lahs !
very very fun luhs , laughs !
today , had 2 test ! dammit lahs !
thn recess played with HR SJB !
tht stupid JUNJIE call me mu zhu lahs !
blood hell okays ? stupid idiot , tml he die .
aft sch went to bbt shop with stdy [:
bought bubble tea and went to bball court .
th sky playing games with us , LOLS .
thn hth with stdy [: ily stdy [:
siva did smth idiotic to me and also to russell .
both are diff issue , so relaxs , LOLS !
thn went for CCA , all sec 3 went lizard-ing away :x
thn YC keep making us laughs luhs !
CCA ended , kena seen as a fool by many T_T
was very sad okays ? din really have much mood .
ohwell , hope everything is fine tml luhs [:

'all the memories tht stays with us ,
some of thm will make me laugh .
all th fun tht we deserve
is posted on webs tht wo do surf .
all th laughters sound so nice ,
seeing u smile is my prize .
relax your body , move your feet .
with th music , dance to th beat .
sing in th night , play in th day .
if you don't thn you shall say ,
together with th world's best friends .
even till th world has end .
we'll stay on and never leave .
don't care whn you say : wht if
till the end i'll be with you .
even if you left me too .
with the stars high up in sky ,
take a bow , dont bid goodbye .

DARILYN ,
只想听你叫我最后一次的：妈咪。可以吗？

edmund: sorry la eh. see u den i nervous ma. so keep type wrong. lolz.
OMG , you tell me only jonleo know , how come heng know lehs ? ._.
Siewhua: Hello big one ((: tagged and takkaires hor..
HELO SMALL ONE ! thnks , i'll take care you too [: nver invite me ._.

ytd went no where ? go out in th early morning to Yishun .
thn got th prayers , start from 9 , end at 3.30 ._.
very tired luhs , sad lahs , thn woke up Pubor :x
aft tht , went AMK eat , sorry daddy , din mean it ><
thn went home . chatted w/ pubor for quite long time lahs .
thn at night ring up nephew and russell . [:
now me and russell on 'spree' . thn ZX sabo me lahs !
KUKU LEHS ! damms pekchek okays ? laughs .
changed sit today . sat with russell on his original seat .
he sat at Brandon's , thn YQ sat alone , sorry :x
thn hafifi , still th same , making me and pubor laughs luhs .
cause hafifi sit infrnt of russell , pybor infrnt of me [;
thn din go for recess but went to assemble , very rare :x
went to class , nearly kena suresh scolding -,-
thn is maths rmd , bought cuppacino & fries [:
went to class and eat . hth talk with sugar abt him luhs .
thnks sugar [: std std kena (insert word here) . LOLS !
thn louis disturb here . i disturb edmund , LOLS , funny lahs !
went CCA , kena bully by YC , YY and JY . jigoucuteyoumeiyou !
hafifi and edmund was pissed off by me and stdstd , cause we kept on huggin :x
PE wasn't real great , many things happened ]:
home , now posting , borrowing comp rom sister .
she booking th comp all day . very pissed off with her lahs .
anyone wanna go out on V.Day ? anyone wan come over my house bainian ?
ans asap lahs , cause i making arrangement liaos .
for bainian one 1st lahs , V.Day i may be booked [:
so fast . wakakaka . i very weird i know .
part of th content i told sugar & russell is all abt u all .
near yet far , understood yet unknown . everythings seems to be a dream .
fine aft waking up , but i guess im wrong , im pushing every away .
everything is not to my desire , feel like shouting to th sea .
feel like dipping myself into th deep deep sea , brain wash myself .
i wan to be stress free , is it so difficult ? or im just dumb ?
take a breathe and all's well end's well ? im afraid not okays ?
live like a battle , once u think you're winning , you lose everything .
Take a chance , bet on it ! :'[ i wan F.BDH back , i wan u all back !!!

DARILYN ,
its hard to forgive , but its harder to forget .
有些事情，努力了就会有结果；但有些事，努力了也没有结果。