yi xian: very nice skin but the black doeant suit ur blog must be bright colours as you are super active

thn you find one for me luhs .

Georgina: hi mom!

hello nuer !

edmund: sorry la. type to fast. and i cant see the word i typr oso. colour too bright,,, ur leg ok jiu hao. hahaz... call u somtime ok??

anything .

edmund: see. i type wrong agn... TYPE*

you always type wrong ...

yoyooyoyoo , im back in action again , xDD

woke at 10 today , thn prepare , left house at 11.45 ?

went to KL's thn saw andrew waiting for sam kor [:

went up and saw lionel , Fh , darren(?) , teeguan(?) and teeguan(?)'s girlf .

and also his family luhs , in 5 min , sam & andrew came up .

thn dont know how long ltr , KJ's girlf came . LOLS !

thn sam kor , andrew & lionel won alot of money .

thn we decided to go to hubert's alrdy .

thn there's total of 16 humans over there ,

split into 4 groups , and 4 cabs [: laughs .

1st group : andrew , teeguan(?) , his GF & justus .

2nd group : lionel , fenghua , jiahe , shaojie .

3rd group : sam , KL , KJ KJ's GF .

4th group : (dk th name :x) , darren , SY and me [:

thn 1st to get on cab is andrew's group ..

thn 2nd is ours , 3rd is lionel's 4th is sam .

BUTBUTBUT ! andrew 1st to reach , thn sam thn us thn lionel .

why ? jiahe gave wrong address :X lols ! funny lahs .

thn our taxi very special so fare is $7 , th unknown name pay :x

lio thy all due to wrong address , fare = $10 , LOLS ,

its double of andrew's cabbie . super funny luhs .

thn winston & hubert came down to find us , thn winston left .

ben came also , thn all 18 went up . his mama & papa shock ._.

went in and nearly trashed his house luhs , cre8 chaos lahs !
laughs laughs laughs , thn Hubert sis fren went home , so left us [:

split into 2 group , daidi & blackjack , thn very hyper luhs !
thn few were playing PSP , KL's GF came lahs , Hees .

thn play awhile more , thn left his houseand went home .

now posting , orginally is wanted to go sam house one luhs T_T

lols , my angpow fly away lahs ! super duper ji bo liao now can ?

mayb goin out tonight , its just a MAYB , so its not confirmed [:

DARILYN [:

even thou i dont dream of you anymore ,

but i know myself well in th heart tht i wan you back .

edmund: HI CUTE. how is ur lag?
i not lag , my leg is better [: thnks for caring
yi xian: Mavis new blog is what ah?
idk lehs :x
yi xian: Hey, I link u u never link me TT
sorry lahs , now link alrdy mahs :x

Yes , as you can see frm th picture , its bear/pet day today [:
according to Mr.Hafifi , everyone mus bring a pet/teddy on friday .
he say he'll be bringing aravin :x lols , laughs lahs .
he made me laugh like kuku in class luhs .
thn we butterfly-ed in th class like no one else business :x
thn during E maths , ahjon phone rang luhs . veh loud siols .
thn during A maths , mrs tan ask why today alot ppl bring bear .
recess , play in class , thn had marathon with many humans [:
me , dar , gina , dear , amanda , edmund , russell , alex , CY , SJ , alicia , brenda , hanrou & felicia .
i think still have lahs , forget alrdy lahs :X
yes , as can see , i've change my blogskin , do comment on it .
cause i seriously do not know if i shld still change it .
cause i've been changing 'taste' very often now .
paper conv with russell and ZX , help me okays ?
thn whn on bus with Eelin , sugar & sweetie , thn knew smth .
i wan to know th truth , but its knida impossible ...
theres 2 things i wanna know , frm 2 diff person .
im feeling inferior , im feeling ... wht i am feeling ?
okays , if i were to inferior again , smeone would kill me -,-
today soontat talk back to russell ! WOOTS ! :x
okays lahs , waiting for Pubor & xinggans call tonight [:

DARILYN ,
i've thgt abt it , and i know i've to let you go ...

weiling: RELINK!!
Done [:
Hui Yi: Pretty! I don't know what happen, but cheer up
Pretty , call me up , i'll tell u alrights ?
yi xian: Hey, dun look so upset, you look well even with ur specs but without ur specs would be good also haha
Thnks for your compliment [:
desmond: thanks! =D juz got back to blog recently..how are you?
Im fine , you ? can see , your exBlog die alrdy ._.

Today was really a very normal day lahs .
just tht , i've confide in HR , felicia & tricia [:
thnks for lending me your ears for listening .
im sorry if i pissed you all from my talking lahs .
but hope you all really dont mind luhs [[:
exchange Kayler with HR's baby during lessons today [:
Spend recess with Felicia & HR lovelys [:
thn found out some kuku playing cards in class -,-
nvm , tml will be our turn liaos :x
ohwell , it depends lahs , i dont really have th mood luhs [:

to PUBOR , BUDDY , LOVELYS , AND CO ::
im standing strong , but i'll still need you help okays ?
dont leave me alrights ? cause i need to stand strong now [:
no matter wht , my mind is made up and it cant change .
Except (insert your words) . yes , except tht , just tht .
im moving on , getting along with life well now [:
th past is just th past , i'll have it in my mind .
but now , im in control of my own future , and i'll cherish it well .
Just BidGoodbye to thm , and live life on my own .
[:

yes , i've sort out my thgts , and yes , im feeling better .
thnks for all those who have been there whn i needed you [:
im very happy tht you all din abandon me luhs .
Happy as can be , i gonne change alot of things lahs .
Had a conv with larry [also with alicai & darrel ], it goes like this .

Larry : Sinhui , you this yr very strange , different .
Me : in wht way lehs ?
Larry : you this year veh quiet in class .
Alicia : lols , liddat also wan say ._.
Darrel : i thgt she always veh noisy ?
Me : ASJ , wht you talking ?!
Larry : you all veh guai leh -,-
Me : you veh lame lehs :x

LOLs , who's stranger ? laughs .
tml gonna exchange winnie with Felicia & HR [:
alrightyy [: i'll be ending here readers [:
happy reading ! niffnang and tagg [:

DARILYN ,
我学会了飞翔，我学会了独立，我学会了勇敢。
我也同时学会了做自己。

yi xian: hello sin hui.... that media guy came to find me, i cant believe this. it was ong yong shun? i bet u dun believe oso.... haha he confess to me

- serious ? he can go bang wall die alrdy lahs ! asshole !

idkw , but im having th urge to come post every hour -,-

see lahs , now im addicted to blogging . [:

i wan go bai nian lahs , i heard smth today , and i was so SAD !

if you all don't wan me go , its fine with me , im not free on suday anyway .

im still so stupid to blog to you all . im so so so dumb .

im feeling nauseous , giddy , fainting . and i seriously have NO appetite .

im feeling so weak now , tht i can fall anytime now ...

like duhs , running nose , flu , fever , cough ... LOLS .

my body have no more strength to fight th virus anymore .

my feet hurts like how my heart hurts now . its so pain .

but i guess , my heart really does hurt more thn my feet ...

ohya , played with HR and kayler in chi class today .

had alot of fun [: look at th photo , i only managed to capture one :x

okays , fine , i admit , i ate chewing gum in class ._. laughs .

well well , ard 3pm ++ , th only humans in my house is ,

Sam , Hubert , drew , Lionel , KL , FH , Justus , SJ , Isabel & Joanne .

not couting my family members lahs . LOLS !! :x

Pubor , i really can't help it yeahs , im thinking of him every moment ..

i really need him by my side , but i can never tell him .

i thgt of his number and i feel lonely , i feel neglected .

i feel tht he've left me . i cant help but i cant forget his number .

him & co hates me alot , and i know thy cherish you alot .

dont give thm up , cause thy are humans i really cant afford to lose .

idkw thy did all this to hurt me , to torture me , to kill me .

feeling like th only cloud in th middle of a big big sky ,

feeling like th only ship in th middle of th big big sea .

and no one could ever notice me , no , not even a single soul .

and yes , althou i told you buddy gave me a very good opnion ,

its still not enough , no , i dont think its ever enough ..

dont leave me alrights ? Pubor , iny , iwy , imy , ily !

its been time since i moved on with th future alrdy .

no point staying in th past . whn i can never change it .

+th past can't be changed , but th future is in your hand .

+friendship doubles you joys , and divides your sorrows .

+Many walk in and out of your life , but only friends leave their footprints in your heart .

+Friend is somone who walks in when th whole world has walked out .

+Th future depends on wht we do in th present .

+A true friend is one soul in two bodies .

+An enemy will agree but a friend will argue .

+kindness is a language wher th deaf can hear , and th blind can see .

Yes , interesting quotes uhhs ? Haas , :x

i think i shall stop here alrdy . mayb posting at night ?

Laughhs , im very stupid rights ? 2 post in a day .

Love all readers , nuffnang , and tag dearest [:

DARILYN ,

Lost things/time is never found again .

Th Best way to know life is to lose many things .

Th worst thing you can try to do is to cling on to smth tht is gone or to recreate it .

(Its So damms true.. trust me , rmb these 3 quotes , dont regret too . )

desmond: yoyo! i updated and changed my blog link..link me soon! =)
- sure sure [:

Bused to sch with loveable & honeydew .
thy alighted a stop earlier thn me . cause th sch straight .
limping my way to RP's bus stop & waited for didi .
he hold me to mac . sat there and starting crapping .
thn got one auntie keep starring at me , didi and siva .
ZX went back to get his CME file .
thn whn ZX come back , th auntie came in and talk to him .
LOLS thn we realise its his mother , Scary siols .
thn i limp th way to sch , didi hold me there luhs .
didi , thnks alot uhhs , im like a cripple lahs .
thn chi lesson , go 1st floor to 4th floor repeatedly !
thn aft all tht , home straight with loveable & honeydew .
now at home , a grp of kuku here [:
JM , guna , Guna's friend , Sam , Andrew , FH , Hubert , KL .
thn now , isabel , shaojie , joanne and lionel is here [:
not forgetting mama lahs , LOLS !
im still limping now , mayb wearing slippers tml lahs .
Okays , i'll stp here for now [:

DARILYN [:
Strong Strong Strong !

OKAYS ! IM SO DAMMS PISSED OFF NOW !
Pubor , thnks for listening to me alrights ? ILY !
im sorry if i abit attitude you lahs , cause im so damms angry .
BUDDY IS SOOOO DAMMS SUPER RIGHT LAHS !
FORGIVE THEM & FORGET THEM ,
IF NOT , FORGET THEM , DONT FORGIVE THEM !
IMMA IMMA IMMA IMMA GONNA MAKE RLJH PAY !
IDC , IDK WHT IM GONNA DO , HE'LL PAY !
EVERYONE'S MAKING ME PISSED ON A DAY LIKE THIS !
MAKING MY LIFE SO DIFFICULT YEAHS !
SO WHT IF IM ALONE NOW !~ SO WHT ?!
IM ALONE THT DOESN'T MEAN I CANT STAND STRONG !
IMMA STRONG LADY , JUST THT YOU ALL DONT KNOW !
SHALL IT BE THT WAY , FINE WITH ME !
EVEN IF I FALL, IT DOESN'T MEAN IM WEAK !
CRYING AIN'T GONNA BE MY SOLUTION ANYMORE !
CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE !
THIS WORDS IS PISSING ME OFF ALSO !
PULLING AWAY STRESSES IS MAKING ME WORSE !
WITH IT STAYING THERE , ITS WORSE THN HELL !
comfort zone , cliques , sisters , brothers , friends ...
you've taken it all away , all away my pal ..
you've even took away my heart , my soul .
my happiness , my wall tht i can lean on .
my smile , my dreams , my laughters , myself .
BUT NOW , IM GONNA TAKE IT ALL BACK !
EVERYTHING , YES , EVERYTHING ,
JUST YOU WAIT , I CAN FAIR BETTER THN YOU !
buddies , stay on alrights ? your opinion is needed [:

zihow: i'm not emo larr. tagged. (: oh btw, you look good in that dress.
- lols , thnks [:
isabel: happy cny! (: im going your hse tmr! hehe. i dont wan let you come my hse :p
- how can liddat ? T_T

im back again [:
LOLS , yes , 2nd day of LNY , its not quite good -,-
its so sad alrights ? veh less angpow lahs :x
hope to get more soon lahs ! okays ?
anyway , im starting to miss sch luhs :x
yeahs , even thou i've yet to finish my homework ..
bring kayler out today , bring him go see th world :x
he damms cute alrights ? i make it a point to ,
to bring him out wherever i go ! LOLS [:

its funny rights ? and also , i've just reach home .
i wan go bai nian lahs ! who wan bring me go ?
laughs , Pubor keep saying wan come my house , but dk whn .
today went to douglas's house to bainian .
thn it was so funny lahs . LOLS , laughing like maddies luhs .
thn went to bugis , and marina for shopping [:
lols , thn came home , sad rights ?
only one angpow today luhs T_T .
shall end here bahs , laughs .
sch's starting tml , i've got to do my homework soon .

OHOHOH ! PS , i miss didi , go everywhere hear a song .

a song which i hear from his tv whnever i call him .

didi ! faster come back can ? i needcha ear to listen !

dang , phone went dead -,- dropped on floor ..

DARILYN .
not goin to bother , buddy told me to forget you all .
and its starting now ...

K@ J!3: oh the last picture is the bear bear XD
- yeahs , Haas .

ohgosh , i just cant sleep alrights ?
hth talk with Pubor now , nearly cry .
cause of ... yes , him , and no one else .
seriously , i cant do this anymore lahs .
promised nephew i've to change .
no matter wht , idk wht im gonna become .
but now i only know , i gotta change .
Moving on with my LNY mans [:
gonna get more ang pow and money [:
today went to grandma's and uncle's .
well , it was damns fun , i ate quite alot :x
why , cause i wan to stuff myself full ,
so tht i couldn't think of any sorrow matters .
ate , and realise dejun & dewei have become trees !
dejun , 3 yr older thn me , is now currently 195cm .
dewei , 6mth younger thn me , is now currently 180cm .
okays , fine ! i admit , im short okays ? -,-
wonder wht to wear for tml , LOLS ! confused .
bought too much clothes alrdy , but its good :x
tml goin douglas's , his bungalow is located in a v far place .
i wonder if im goin to be able to take all those walking .
cause my sorta heels there ? (dk wht its call .)
th skin is being peeled off , left feet is super duper worse .
okays , im pathetic i know , no need say -,-
im now learning to read mind , dont come near me ? LOLS !
and i sorta know abit alrdy ? wish me luck on it mans .
found out tht alot couples will be celebrating Vday .
alot of good buddies/friends/sister will also be celebrating Vday .
i guess i'll be celebrating with kayler and co bahs .
fine , from th previous post today , today ? yeahs .
you mus be wondering who's kayler , rights ?
he's my teddy alrights ? i gave him this name [:
cute rights ? anw , i gave him a name so tht he'll be diff from other teddy .
and also , to rmb th person who gave it to me .
and keep our happy memories in heart ...
but well , looking at him makes me both happy and sad .
happy cause i have th best memories ,
sad cause i've seems to lost him T_T . sad rights ?
ohwell , im gonna shut this crap .
i seriously cant help it okays ?
cause a blog is to help me type everything out ?
everything or most things deep down my heart .
and i cant help but to pour it here ]:
went blog hopping and found out tht RLJH is bad mouthing abt me .
he'll pay man , he shall pay for th price on wed -,-
He kuku lahs , crash him head man , make sure he dont run away ..
okays , tml's gonna be a long day ahead ,
wish me luck on more red packets and happiness [:
Love all readers , nuffnang alrights ?
ciaoszxzxz [:

DARILYN ,
to change or not to change ?

hellos everybody [: im back again .

all pictures are from today , th 1st day of LNY [:

except for th last , took it ytd {:

i so miss KAYLER okays ? he's super CUTE !

today gotten alot of red packets . MUAHAHA :x

lols , not tht much lahs , but hope theres many more to go .

cause this LNY is short T_T sad rights ?

ohwell , hope everything is fine luhs [:

sms with ETWB , LOLS , his name short form nicer -,-

well well , missing didi alrdy luhs ....

he went for MY , cause his half MY half SG [:

he go there bai nian , coming back only on wed night .

so he'll be skipping sch . good for him luhs .

&&& whenever he's away from SG , im always sick -,-

and im sorta gettingused to being sick ?

EHHS ! NEW YEAR LEHS ! WTH AM I SAYING -,-

i've yet to finish up th homework ]:

i went bonkers cause of homework lahs !

i see till gong gong luhs . super duper sad lahs !

chatted with pubor just now , told her quite an amount of things .

yes , mostly wht was kept in me for th past few weeks ,

hope she cross her heart , and dont tell cause its very important .

wearing my dress , and heels , its quite uncomfortable :x

but i've to wear it , cause I WAN CHANGES IN MY LIFE !

wearing dress , its kinda , sorta , somehow , big change ?

laughs ,

end here bahs , ohohoh , change some things in my post .

cause why , i need changes , i wan changes in my life [:

shld i wear specs or contacts ?

shld i just forgive or shld i forget ?

a new me ? th present me ? or th past me ?

TAGGS REPLY ;;

to EDMUND ;; to you too [: lols , thks ..

to YIXIAN ;; speaking of mrtang , i do miss him :x

to ALICIA ;; okays , deleted [: i'll be happy , hees .

to RACHEL ;; i know , its ugly . where you ? i veh long nvr see u -,-

DARILYN ,

Trying very hard to change myself [:

i know i'll soon get th results ..

apology for my zilian photos :x

TAGGS REPLY ::
to GEORGINA ;; sure do , welcome to crazy-ness !

BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOM ! HEYYO !

tml is th start of a very very new day [:

its th CHINESE NEW YEAR ! eve . laughs [:

thn it'll be new year , eat ur dinner with your loved ones !

Haas , yes , as th previous post stated ,

im changing , yes , pretty much lahs [:

im leaving th past in th past , awaiting th new future .

yes mans , gonna wear new clothes , and shoe obviously [:

gonna love it so much mans ! Haas , will upload photo .

photo of my new yr clothes , duhs ! funny .

due to my laziness and chionging of HW ,

i guess i wouldn't be on9 for some days ?

busy meeting relatives and getting red packets {:

so well , wish me in getting more surprises bahs !

morning woke and 9+ and YKW , smth happened alrights ?

its was so super duper sad lahs ! idkwbisly .

fine , shut th craps alrights , today wasn't a really good .

had a little tiff of with sister , but was fine aft tht [:

sorry sissy , didn't mean to lahs , dont angry kkaes ?

help daddy and mummy with spring cleaning .

it was fun okays ? clean halfway thn go eat .

wondering wht i eat ? th new year snacks :x

mummy let me eat mahs , thn i also hungry . Hees .

thn finish dinner , went to AMK jalan jalan .

bought cappucino , and now was like damms awake lahs -,-

LOLS , and also , today , i've decided on smth [:

wht thing ? shh , secret worhs , unless you guess luhs :x

or unless you're smart to find it in this post .

its sorta a little clue luhs [: lalalalala , good luck in finding it !

Thought I couldn't live without you .

It's gonna hurt when it heals too , it'll all get better in time .

Even though I really love you , im gonna smile cause I deserve to .

It'll all get better in time . hope it does ...

ohwell , let th past remain as th past ,

no point reminisce th past whn you have th future .

dingdong , laughs laughs , mr God Of Fortune is coming ;p

hope everything really gets better in time lahs [:

gonna midnight chat with nephew once again .

confiding in him again luhs , sorry if it bugs you alot .

but this time , you really need to know why ...

im shutting th craps lah [: Loves readers .

nuffang and tags [:

ciaosxzxzxz . {:

DARILYN .

im not as strong as you think i am .

but i'll be strong once again .

Nice ? Hougang's sky [:


Dinner at TiongBahru last sat [:


Me & alicia during recess aft CNY .
I know my hair dams messy lahs :x


Wht i was wearing [:

HEYY YOOH EVERYBODY !!
are you ready for new year mood ?!?
im super duper ready alrigths ? Haas .
perform GZ and also with Ms Zhang and 4 seniors .
thy are , Jiayi , ZhenYing , Alina and Emily [:
lets talk abt GZ 1st alrights ? we were aft CO .
and 3 group humans singing , while tht happen ,
me ad georgina were madding behind th curtains .
its so damms funny alrights ? we were maddies .
okays , maddie hottie , cause both went mad and hot . HAHA .
its wass kinda great , but i boomed for both performance .
i nearly trip on my skirt at th end of both performance .
it was so damms unglam and embarrassed lahs .
thn sit and watch , halfway thru , ms tay came .
sak us go carry our GZ back to room T_T
thn go back class . it was so fun lahs .
but some how , i dont really have th mood today lahs .
why , cause i was thinking of smth and my clothing .
my feet hurts . i wore skinny and hoodie top and heels .
a maths was kinda sorta perhaps a disaster lahs .
i didn't do my homework and so did many others .
cause i was like so damms tired th previous day lahs .
im worn out cause of th rehearsals and training .
thn also did some thinking which made my face wet .
obviously im abt to type things to him lahs , okays ?
To Him , i wanna put your name , but i dont want .
i wanna change alrights ? i really do .
but you are taking away my friends , my love .
thy are my comfort zone , i need them .
w/o thm , i doubt i can change alrights ?
i wan somebody to tell me tht im wrong and right .
yes , with a reason , and also politely , themself .
which many of them did , and im glad tht thy did it .
trying real hard not to make any mistakes ,
but im th imperfectionist . i cant be perfect .
not everyone can be a prefect human , perfectionist .
and im obviously not in tht category .
i wan to forgive you and let th matter , in camp , rest .
cause im tired abt it , i dont wan to think abt it alrdy .
but you're giving me th , i-dont-care-anymore attitude .
and i detest it alot , really really much . Detest , okays .
and im gonna tell you smth from here , yes , here .
smth i wan to tell but i dont wan to cause of ur attitude .
i need you , to be there for me like you used to .
i need you , to show care and concern for me .
i need you , to tell me whts right and wrong .
i need you , to help me with my unknowns .
i wanted you , to be there when i fall .
i wanted you , to love me like how you used to .
i wanted you , to see me thru it all .
i wanted you , show me wht i need .
its took me a hard time for me to type this out .
and if i were to say it , it may take weeks ?
cause knowing wht you did , you know it very well .
im unable to forgive myself , as well as you .
but im really trying . trying very hard to change also .
pls reply me if you saw this portion of this post .
also , a reply whether am i still ur friend .
a reply whether how much you detest me .
a reply on also , wht do you hate me ?
i shouldn't elaborate more on this , you shld know .
pls answer from deep down your heart ...
anyway , CNY performance ended alrdy .
now need prepare for SYF liaos .
gonna be so tiring mans , cries lahs .
im super sick now , and have insomnia .
tht whys i slept for only 4 hr + today .
haven bath , wht so ever , LOLS ! smelly i know .
sugar babe went for SYF's rehearsal . miss her mans .
aft sch , went to bubble tea shop cause sweetie thirsty .
thn we both buy cuppacino , sweetie addicted to it alrdy :x
Haas , &&& thnks to sweetie & angeline to pei me go cp .
and thn bused home , thnks alot uhhs [:
shall end her lahs , im still having things in my heart .
wanna find ppl to talk to , but all not free T_T
end bahs , gonna sort out my heart , mind and soul luhs .
ciaosx , nuffnang & tag readers ! Lovesya , TYVM .


DARILYN ,
She Is Naive , Hearty , Ultimate , Insatiable [;



i happened to came across some photos .
and so , i started daydreaming .


T'cher day 2008 ! [:
th 8 of us danced our heart contents .
with th lil music of run th show .
its wasn't perfect , but we enjoyed it .


Was having chinese oral 2008 ! [:
cam whore in class for like 10 mins ?
cher was outside class having orals .
we tied our hairs and cam whore .
its was undescribeable [:


Dec 2008 ! [:
doin holiday assignment at mac .
but in the end , it turned to slacking .
went to play bball aft studying .



Dec 2008 ! [:
At Mrt station , OTW to bugis .
knowing tht i was taking photo ,
thy all turned away from me .


Mar 2008 ! [:
class outing , arcade & bowling .
@ kovan , went there right aft sch .
Had fun , and ate at KFC .
im starting to miss mr tang .
wonder how's he doin right now .
im guilty alrights ...

its been half year alrdy buddies .

hope to meet up with you all alrights ?

miss th fun times we spent together [:

TAGGS REPLY ::
to YIXIAN ;; lols , he throw piano for ? he cant take luhs :x no offence .

heyyoo readers !! im back for more [:
dont really know wht to type lahs .
but well , just type my heart out bahs ...
alot of things happened today , oh it was sad ~
oh i dont care ~ yeahs man , idc , not anymore .
say all you wan , do all you wan , IDC [:
OMG , th whole thing is me and her plan one luhs .
now you say wan kick me out , WTF !
wht th hell you trying to do ?
from now on , its all ur prob now , IDC !
no partner so ? i cant high pitch so ? SO WHT ?
its all abt being happy and being tgt luhs .
got ppl you like so wht ? i got a love so wht ?
whts tht all suppose to mean to me mans ?
bloody idiots , 'WOW' how 'WONDERFUL' friends you are .
OMG , so naive to believe you , brainless .
backstab me , betray me , now trying to act it all out .
get a life babes , stop all this nonsence and strip .
HAH ! moving alone with life , with lady luck .
love chanel (spell correct?) alot mans , ILY !
chatted with me on th way home thru sms .
and thn , well , i cheered up , chanel ! ILY MAX MAX !
super sorry to piggy , sorry tht i forced you .
i just wanted to a part , not apart .
im trying to move on , but somehow im stuck .
ladyluck , thnks alot for being there loves [:
1st tiem emaths rep kena kick outta emaths class .
whtthfish luhs , im suchha failure lahs .
thnks for cheering me up sugarbabe [:
thnks for letting me copy ,yeehong & onesia [:
thnks everyone who was there for me th start of this week .
PE with sugar babe was super fun alrights ,
been getting leg cramps starting monday , but its worths ?
blast my MP3 today in class . sweet .
gonna stay back eeryday this week just for CNY .
dropping outta all th rest except for GuZheng's .
dont ask , dont ponder , i planned everything .
next thing you know , i was goin to be Kick out .
so i rather say : I QUIT ! I DROP OUT !
idc , unless you all beg me , HAHS ! [:
well well , talk to simplyInnocent . LOLS !
a name i gave him lahs , funny siols .
now on phone with loveable [: laughs .
end here bahs , gonna do my maths .
imma good girl [:
imma so damms confused now lahs .
i know i did smth wrong , so wrong .
you cant blame me . i was sorry .
i had no choice , cause you tore my life apart .
tht why i have to do this .
XXX and co. shall not say who lahs .
thy know who thy are luhs [:
you all build me up , and tore me down .
im sad , but you'll never know ,
a mask is wht im carrying everyday .
why , its all because of you XXX and co.
i wan a sincere everything from you all .
show me tht you're sincere thn i'll see abt it .
stop giving fucking attitude as thou you know whts up .
NEVER , you'll never know mans .

DARILYN [:
imNeverGoingToBeNaive .

TAGGS REPLY ::
to ALICIA ;; YEAHS BABY !!
to YIXIAN ;; which one ? got alot song luhs .
to DARREL ;; you loooookk seeeexxxxxyyyyy man [:

HeyyheyyYOUYOU !
yes , i haven got over th fact man .
anw , knew smth tht made me sad .
some matter irks me alot .
im inna happy mood with sugar babe , mei , nic and steadstead .
love thm super duper man . (L)
thy've been thru ups and down with me .
ladys , I LOVE YOU MANS !
gonna perform for CNY , [:
intensive training so wouldn't be on9 for awhile ?
yeahs , i suppose so too [:
to XXX , and co ::
stop acting as thou you care alot okays ?
i dont need your sympathy .
im fine , alive and i wouldn't die with LadyLucks .
which is my sorta very best friends .
backstabbing me ? betray me ? sorry man .
its all over tonight , i NEVER gonna believe you .
im gonna move on alone . Hah , im strong .
believe it or not , your acting sucks alot !
Act it Out , show me if you can do it .
if not , dont tell me your better thn me .
im strong strong strong and never stronger !
take a guess , take a peek , IM IN LOVE !
with who ? LadyLucks , Loves and ppl whom i care !
get a life , hunney , dont be childish , fakers ?
pls , i feel like forgiving you , but nahs ,
you did smth tht irks me alot man .
Hah , take a bow , you are leaving my heart ,
my mind , my everything , im erasing you .
BOOYAH ! idc whtcha gonna do . getalife !

im ending here .
it all piss me off mans .
woots , i still love myself th very end .
Baby , i loveyou
SINHUI .
PeekaBOO !

TAGGS REPLY ::
to TINGFANG ;; HELLOS ! yeahs , i'll try . its hard .
to EDDIE ;; wht if i dont wan ? relaxs , :x
to ERNEST ;; sure do [:

HEY HEY YOU YOU ~
im back again , currently depressed .
Things happen again and again , yeahs , alot .
lucky theres piggy , sweet&salt , didi to pei me lahs .
i'll be there for them if thy need me . Serious .
realse smth again . yes , i've realised alot of things .
you have to lose some thing in order to know th truth ,
or you just have to lose smth to find wht you really desire .
and yes , i've lose many things , and i've truly found out alot of things .

1. i found out tht im an 'actor' i act alot .
2. i found out tht im always wearing a mask .
3. i found out tht im truly super weak .
4. i found out tht im truly changing with th help of some .
5. i found out tht im actually NOT important in some's heart .
6. i found out tht im goin to be alright no matter wht .
7. i found out tht i've been hurting myself alot .
8. i found out tht i've been trusting too many ppl .
9. i found out tht i've been a burden to many ppl .
10. i found out tht i've been cruel to alot of ppl & i've to change .
11. i found out tht i've been able to overcome some of my fears .
12. i found out tht i've been able to let go of some things i cant .
13. i found out tht i've been so emotional this few days .
14. i found out tht i've been to naive to believe some .
15. i found out tht i've to found back my old self .
16. i found out tht i've to cherish and take care of everyone ard me .
17. i found out tht i've to move on with life rather thn staying in th past .
18. i found out tht i've to make everybody ard me happy & hyper .
19. i found out tht i've got to work hard to achieve my goals .
20. i found out tht i've got to learn to be independent .
21. i found out tht i want humans to address me as darilyn .
22. i found out tht i want to be alone and lonely ? [true/false]
23. i found out tht i want to be someone everyone likes .
24. i found out tht i was sucha failure , sucha freako .
25. i found out tht i just want to be happy , thts all .
26. i found ot tht i don't have a natural self .
27. i found out tht i can't be weak anymore .
28. i found out tht i can't breakdown no matter wht .
29. i found out tht some things are important and some ain't .
30. i found out tht i can learn how to be a great friend . [:

okays , 30 things tht i've found out .
for today ? may have more ...
but well , im happy tht i've sort out my mind ,
thnks to piggy , sweet&salt & didi .
missing every moment we spent talking/messaging .
thnks for all your words & opinions [:
okays , i shall stop here ?
cause i've yet to start on my homeworks .
and its killing me cause its a maths .
gosh , anyone to lend me copy ?
nahs , i cant do it anymore . cause , i've to be independent .
and yeahs , do click on my nuffang sweetest [:
ending here with much much love [:

DARILYN ,
adapting to new everything ./
as im changing [:

TAGGS REPLY ::
to EDDIE ;; put link lahs !~
to RUSSELL ;; thnks thnks , good security guard u are [:
to KAIJIE ;; yeahs , just tht u dk .
to DARREN ;; how am i suppose to . whn both XXX & YYY & ZZZ liddat .
to GEORGINA ;; nuer , love u . linked [: happy birthday !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GEORGINA KOH JU NA !!!

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it's funny when you find yourself
looking from the outside
i'm standing here but all i want
is to be over there
why did i let myself believe miracles could happen
'cause now i have to pretend
that i don't really care
i thought you were my fairytale
a dream when i'm not sleeping
a wish upon a star that's coming true
but everybody else could tell
that i confused my feelings
with the truth
when there was me and you
i swore i knew the melody
that i heard you singing
and when you smiled you made me feel
like i could sing along
but then you went and changed the words
now my heart is empty
i'm only left with used-to-be's
and once upon a song
now i know you're not a fairytale
and dreams were meant for sleeping
and wishes on a star just don't come true
'cause now even i can tell
that i confused my feelings
with the truth
because i liked the view
when there was me and you
i can't believethat i could be so blind
it's like you were floating
while i was fallingand i didn't mind
because i liked the view
i thought you felt it too
when there was me and you
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things went worse thn i've ever imagined .
its hard for me to believe , tht we were once in love .
time flies , very fast whn you're happy .
but now since this is your decision , i've gotta face it .
thought tht miserable times were only at camp .
but didn't know it hasn't stop . it continued .
heartbroken . my heart hurts . my body aches .
cause of thm , cause of camp , cause of you .
didi , do keep everything to yourself , please .
trusting ppl may not be as easy as i used to do so .
after this camp , i've really realise alot of things .
things tht i should and should not .
i've survived th whole camp w/o thm .
but with other humans tht worth my love for thm .
i really appreciate their care and concern .
i'll never forget their care whn i needed thm .
glad tht some things still went my way .
seeing humans being so happy , im jealous .
i know i cant be as happy as thm , real .
during th camp , i woke up in th middle of th night .
doin wht ? crying my heart out . its so bad .
i have no choice . i dont want to worry my friends .
making my way alone , through th crowd .
i was unable to do so , as im getting weaker and weaker .
i've no more strength to find and survive th wilderness .
i need my friends , i need thm , i need you all , by my side .
but im trying to be strong , helpless but i will try my best .
i tend to give in , but aft this camp , im sorry , i've changed .
love all , trust just a few , this is so true , so believe it .
i've bruises and cuts everywhere on my exposed body .
my foot , legs , hand , wrist , arms , elbow .
theres ard 20 + if im not wrong . i can die mans .
CNY us coming , i'll be so ugly mans .
haihs , i shall stop here .
post tonight if possible , [:

DARILYN /.
making my way thru th crowd w/o crying .

HEY HEY YOU YOU !!
im back from camp . miss me ?
alrights , i shall start abt th camp . [:
i've realise smth during th camp .
but lets start with th camp .
feeling will be placed between sentences .

DAY 1 :
Report to school as usual , BUT with our luggage :x
thn went on bus to Tuas checkpoint & to Malaysia .
we were bored . so YQ and TF started playing games .
thn played bomb , everyone went to bomb Fifi .
up on bus and started our jorney to Pulai , Edventure Village .
th bus towards pulai was so cool !!!
its a U shape couch at th back . SWEET !
brandon , russell , KJ , siva , YH , JJ , Edmund , YQ , TF and me were at th back sitting .
siva and YH were having much fun & we all were laughing like mad !
disturb this person thn tht person . LOLS . how evil :x
REACH !-
went to assemble at th parade ground .
thn we were located to our dom , checking in [:
thn leave our belonging there & thn went to assemble again .
3e3 were split into 2 groups . sad thing luhs .
Group 3 and Group 4 . but we were always tgt {:
discuss our group name & did our so called banners .
Group 3's Name : FiFi .
Group 4's Name : Monstar .
thn we went for outdoor cooking .
it was alright luhs . Haas . food not really nice :x
thn i realise tht mostly wherever 3e3 goes ,
3e2 will mostly be there . GOSH . good or bad ?
well , aft cooking , we went for water trekking .
it was fun alrights . but i was kinda unlucky luhs .
kena bite by 1 leech . thn also , right before tht ,
smth 'serious' happen . tht make Haz angry .
cause it was sorta faking out . yeahs .
OHYA ! Hax is th trainer for Monstar .
and Joya is th trainer for FiFi .
back to main point :x Haas .
after th trekking , we went to wash up [bath] .
bathe tgt with Pubor . LOLS !
thn had our dinner , it wasn't really nice either -,-
sat with brandon , siva , YH, ZX , KJ , JJ , Jon , Taufiq and ....
okays fine , i forgot who th last person was -,-
thn had our leadership talk . o.0
thn supper , debrief & lights off [:
laid on my sleeping bag for 3 mins and slept !
cause i was so damms tired by th trekking , fun althou .
DAY 2 :
woke at 4.30 , Trash my heart to seekei , cried once .
went out to talk , cause i didn't wan to wake th rest .
wash up & thn we chatted till 7.20am .
told dar , laopo abt XXX , thn cried 2 time individually .
thn we went to assemble , thn breakfast .
sat with baobao , Loveable , wendy , Pubor , JJ , taufiq , Daryl , Mavis , Jon .
if i didn't rmb wrongly lahs . Haas . (:
went for a game called : Race Against Time .
our group need to carry th sketcher ,thn step on stones ,
run thru 3 tunnel , place tiles and step on it .
run roud 2 very wide poles 2 rounds .
thn did backwards crawl , sunny side up . LOLS !
thn is commander crawl , but alot ppl did using baby crawl .
thn rush to mud water . and carry th thing up , cause got a very very big step .
thn went thru th so called spider webs which alot penalty was cause .
as quite alot ppl touched th ropes luhs . [:
group 3 start 1st , opps , forgot who carry th thing .
thn is our turn , YH was 1st man WZ was last man .
Siva , russell , jiajun & edmund was carrying tht thing lahs .
thn whn it was th whole class turn , me , alicia , brenda & wendy carry tht thing .
but alot ppl came to help . thnks alot . [:
thn went for backwoods man cooking .
it means cooking with th 'tools' of th cave man time .
made sweet banana , orange egg & jungle donuts .
Sweet banana : smash banana and add sugar , heat up .
Orange Egg : cut off th orange top , eat up all th orange .
crack th egg in it . thn heat it up .
Jungle Donut : flour , sugar and water mixed tgt . thn use a stick to cook .
thn learnt how to build a basha , a tent tht can fit many ppl .
also , its height is abt th tight to th waist . [:
went for lunch . sit with th usuals . Haas [:
thn went for waterfall trekking . it was so damms funny luhs .
Fifi go say ms neo . thn taufiq was joking all th way .
Reach waterfall , it was so fun ! love it , althou th water is cold .
its worth all th time we spent on walking up .
but i hurt myself cause ppl were pushing here and there .
went back with leg limping . XXX don't even care !
thn went back to assemble tn for dinner .
aft dinner heard smth from didi .
thn cried like mad , many ppl was caring . thnks .
TO SIVA , DARREN , SEEKEI , SARA , XINYI , WENDY , ALICIA , AND MANY MORE ::
thnks for your care whn i needed you most !
i was sad at tht time , thnks for all ur accompany !
thn was actually alrights , seekei calm me down .
thn didi , siva and ZX run infrnt of me .
i saw didi thn rmb wht he tell me thn i cried again .
madly . really . my eyes went red . so sick i was tht time .
yeahs , sick as in , fever , running nose . just cause of XXX .
assemble thn group 1-6 went for night hike .
i stayed close to siva . he's A1 , im A2 .
we hold on to each others hand throughout th whole hike .
thn went we reach th end , we laid on th ground watching th stars [:
its so beautiful , theres th sagitaraus(?) , aries , capricorn , north and south star .
aft th hike , went back , bathe . didn't have supper .
to bed thn .
DAY 3 :
okays , i slept throughout th whole night luhs ! LOLS !
woke up , ate breakfast with th usuals [:
went to challenge village , its so super duper fun luhs .
i was called th monkey -,- cause i did all tht quickly .
Haz shoulder was dislocated . scary siols !
monstar went to tire wall thn to cargo net .
while fifi's is vice versa . laughs [:
no matter which station we do , monstar always finish first ! YAY !
whn Fifi's doin th tire wall , yixian want to climb .
but he fell . everyone went shocked ! so shocked !
thn went to build raft [: our raft was 1st cause ....
Pubor , wendy & weebee sat on it .
thn me , sva and YH was in water holding on to th raft . laughs ;>
thn went for lunch again , with th usuals . Hees .
thn went to no man land & sherwood's .
it was super duper fun , LOLS . funny funny .
thn we finish early & laid on th parade grund to dry ourself under th sun .
thn went to dewan to think of our performance for camp fire [:
we came up with skit & 2 made up songs [:
its so damms funny luhs .
th MC is siva ! th 5 judges are Me , brenda , Fifi , YH and edmund &&
respectively , Ms siaocharbor , ms panda , mr cat , mr mushroom & mr nut .
thn contestant was wendy and jiajun . security guards is russell , KJ and ZX .
Mad person is Taufiq . thn a discourager is Jon . comedy siols bodoh !
during all rehearsals , brenda keep laughing .
thn we went to bath and change ninto our camp tee [:
proceed to continue discussing th performance .
cause weizhou & morrison were late , thy had to do forfeit .
by dancing how u feeling (sexy version)
sexiest's group go to eat 1st . who do u think will win ?
majority was betting on morrison . but in th end , weizhuo WIN !!!
woots ! monstar's scream like mad !!! WOOHOO !
thn is dinner . usuals again luhs . LOLS ! funny funny .
thn it was camp fire !
had alot of funny games , cute song , beautiful sky .
im super in love with nature ! and malaysia's sky :x
thn th camp fire end at 11pm . as majority dont wan th camp fire to end .
thn went back to our respective houses to sleep .
Pubor , Loveable , Mavis , Baobao , wendy and me was playing truth not dare [:
i didn't kena anything luhs . cause i was lucky ? Haas .
DAY 4 :
slpt at ard 1++ . thn woke at 5.45 .
went out of houses , sat on th road with mavis .
watch th sky & enjoy th very very cold breeze .
its super cold , and th wind is big ! awesome [:
knock on e1 , e2 and e3 guys houses at 6.10 :x
lols . cause me and mavis were bored . looking for ppl to chat .
thn pack bag whn our houses girls were awake .
brought our bag our and sat at th parade ground .
clean up th dewan and parade .
had a final debrief & evaluation , guess wht .
theres a prize presentation for best enthu , best teamwork , best perseverance .
BEST ENTHU GOES TO : group 11 (3t9)
BEST TEAMWORK GOES TO : group 1 (3e2)
BEST PERSERVERANCE GOES TO : group 4 (3e3!)
every class left for th bus , and our class was last .
as we need to clean up th parade ground .
our class was split up due to not enough buses .
went back to school . reach sch ard 1.30 pm .
mother grab me home . sorry guys .
cant have lunch with u all . next time alrights ?
real real super super sorry :x

shall end this as its super duper long .
and im super dupe tired .
and also , im kinda smelly :x
Haas . i shall go now. love all .
tag more [:

e3 gonna sing a song doo daa doo daa .
e3 gonna sing a song all th doo daa dey .
we gonna sing all night , gonna play all day .
if you wa ur spirit rights , join e3 today !

e3 how you feeling ?!?
i feel so good ! Ah Ah !
i feel so good ! Ah Ah !
i feel so good i feel so good i feel so good ! Ah Ah Ah !

we bang we bang . oh baby we rock we rock .
you'll go crazy cause we smell like flower
and you smell like my shoe .
like all th class in history !

SINHUI .
1 cut for losing my loves .
1 cut for losing my friends .
1 cut for losing my happiness .
1 cut for losing my Hyper soul .
1 cut for losing my self , to myself .
total , 5 DEEP cuts in my heart .

TO SIVA , DARREN , SEEKEI , SARA , XINYI , WENDY , ALICIA , AND MANY MORE ::
thnks for being there and thnks for your care whn i needed you most !
i was sad at tht time , thnks for all ur accompany !
cause of you ppl tht cheer me up . I LOVE YOU !!
feel free to find me if u have any trouble . [:
i promise i'll be there for you no matter .
and also , siva , thnks alot , you rocks !
and darren , i really have to salute you for all tht you did .
thnks for everything .
I LOVE YOU ALL !!! (L) !!!

to YYY , i've always thought tht you treat me better thn XXX .
but during this camp , i realise tht everything wasn't wht i expected .
you treat me like fark . ignoring me and giving me th cold shoulder .
i feel sad , so sad . i wan to cry . i wan to be silly .
so to be unaware of everything ard me . serious .
throughout this whole camp , i've sorta find my real friends ?
thts is , siva , darren , seekei , sara , xinyi , James , josson , wendy , alicia .
i have a feeling tht you wan to go to th past .
th past of idk you , and u dk me . please dont make it happen .
but if you really wan it to happen . thn i'll respect u deeply .

to XXX , you made me cried 2 times in day 1 , 6 time in day 2 .
i dont know wht decision u'll make .
you always listen to ur friends . no matter if its right or wrong .
im not saying you can't , cause u can do wht ever u wan .
as i can never control your life no matter wht .
and u don't trust me . whtn am i suppose to do ?
write out a contract ? i cant help it . im breaking down .
YET YOU DONT GIVE A FREAK DAMS !
i suppose i know who tht friend tht told u to B.U with me .
i may not be right . but i cant never be wrong .
i know tht person is involved . i know it .
so just stop doubting my instinct . wht ever decision u make .
please tell me earlier . okays ? if u wan to listen to tht friend , go ahead .
i have my friends tht i can count on .
i once love you , and i still will .
i have my cliques tht will cheer me on .
i'll be th sun in th sky , i'll be th disater in YOUR eyes .