2post in 1day

I went through my folders , navigating my way thru th few thousands photo i had , i miss you :( badly , all those memories we had . is it all gone ..? our pledge haven't even end , i want those times back , :(




i want a brand new camera before prom :(


Withlovez ,
DARILYNblackRszxc.

:(

What's Kinship ? What's Family ? What's ... Home ...? :(

In this family , i no longer hold th slightest stand to speak . Everything i seem to do doesn't even seem to please you . who am i exactly to you guys ..? im having th exams yet i don't even get support from you guys . Whats wrong ? can you see tht everything is hurting me .

Change ,

is th only word i heard from you guys in th gentlest tone , there's not a fuck wrong thing with me . I treat people th way thy treat me . Look , Mum and sist just can't stop with th insults , everyday .. Bro never fails to kick , beat and scold me . As a mother , i thgt you'll know wht to do . IM SO WRONG . and think , how much things i've told you recently ? Can't you ever know thtn i want things between us to CHANGE ? to IMPROVE ? NO ! YOU DONT ! and all you did was malign me just cause you heard th PART from YOUR dearest baby son , WHAT ABOUT ME ?! haven't you ever spare a thgt for me ? I've been living for S.I.X.T.E.E.N. YEARS alrdy , and you can jolly well tell bro to NOT insult his classmate , cause whn thy do it back to you . You'll never like it , wht abt all these you're doing to me ? C'mon , You said you might be joking , I.CAN.SEE.IT.TOO. BUT please , whr's your fucking limit ? YOU EVEN TELL ME THT EVERYONE'S PATIENCE HAS A LIMIT . AND WHT TH FUCK IS ALL THIS FUCKING THING BREWING IN TH HOUSE ? C'mon , Home no longer feels warm .. Not to me anymore , you know why ? cause all th love has been removed between us , you might deny whn you read this . take a look in th past , all those lovely memories , but now ..? its horror , its nightmare . but you'll never know . dont you ? You never bothered about anything i do , neither does it bother you . i never wanted this from th start , but everything , EVERY.SINGLE.LITTLE.THINGS , i do , doesn't seem important ...

do you know how much thgt i gave for me to be able to type ALL these ? i never wanted to disgrace you , but tht day @ mac ? WHT HAVE YOU DONE ?! you know i dont like it , no one ever does . sorry , but do reflect ..

Withlovez ,

DARILYNblackRszxc.

TimesUp ,

BLOGSKIN CHANGED @ 2000hours !

got sick of th previous one , guess its my mood bahs :(

Its th first week of Olevel and i've stressed myself up :( how useless can i be . SCREWWWW !

i wonder if its me , or it is tht things have really changes ..? i find it so hard to describe it now , everything is like th mist from th car window . i just can't seem to wipe it away , all th blurified images . i can't even seem to see right from wrong .. Mayb its just me . i really dk ...

i miss th nature , at least troubles aint coming in , worries & stress are far away .

i want th wind to carry all my worries away , smiling and being happy all day doesn't seem to be who i am anymore ... i want a break , break from all these stress and worries .

next week , it'll be phy & geog . SS , MT & MCQ will resume th following .

after tht i need to prepare for Prom . Then its work ..

ain't it obvious , im doubting life more thn i can , but thn i've gotta endure .

megosh :( got th urge to tapered my fringe again :( check out my prof pict :)

ARGHS ! so pissed and bloody confused with so many things :'(

Withlovez ,

DARILYNblackRszxc

perfecto !

Perfecto ! school today was awesome ! :D

reason being PE , was blast ! especially playing badminton w/ tingfang , edmund , lary , jon & moremoremore ! :D

and , we could just leave school w/o tcher consent :)

also ! mavis & co. even ordered mac delivery ! cool ttm !

didn't have assembly neither did we have flagraising .

met up with jolyne & lunched together with tingfang :)
Haas , had much laughter uhs ! cute uhs .

Amath dismissal was early , went to hall to play piano .

Jiajun skills was AWESOME ! (L) lovediethmusic!(L)

mass night lecture was a blast for those who left just tht little bit late :D
th nocturnal scream and jokes , its so gonna be th last time before we start Olevel .

Omg , im really very scared now :(

and tht cranky guy actually asked me to join him @ ite . dammdamm :(

yup , im posting now as im afraid i would forget all this fun time today :D

beside , mrs tan even allow us to eat in class . *winks .

Life's great today :)

homesweethome @ 8plus (:

now im here ,

With Lovez ,

DARILYNblackRszxc .

imma bad girl

mianeh , this picture is th pict for countdown to 2010 , jeremy isn't in *guilty*

anyway , i miss countdowns ttm ! i wanna have a glam on this year end ^^V

imma bad girl , reason being im not studying :( i've got like 8 days to english written , and about 4 days to practical :( and im blogging here :'(

im so upset ystd night , my phone crashed . using sist's spare now , which isn't better -.- can i can't get a new phone . ARGHS ! whts more, im caught by a flu bug :( goodjob Darilyn :(

i've been thinking , i should stop all these nonsence till th 11 days of papers end !

and after tht , WAHAHAHA ! its partayeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ! :D

-thinking too far- okays , im off to studaye ! BYE ! wish me luck yea !

With Lovez ,

DARILYNblackRszxc

My Bad x/

Heyheyhey ! im sorry :( my bad for not updating for suchaaaa long time yea :D
busy in school time :( well , kinda used to it . might be liking it too ! :D
at least with all th busy studying i wont think about other stuffs :D

but i might be super duper ultra tired only :D

giving this blog a speedy update :D

will spam outing with JOLYNELLT ! (L) after Olevel ! :D

well well , this is th timetable for olevel , hope things goes well (:

21OCT - Practical .
25OCT - English ppr1 and 2 .
26OCT - Emath ppr1 .
27OCT - Emath ppr 2 .
28OCT - Amath ppr1 .
29OCT - Amaths ppr 2 and chem ppr3 .
1NOV - Phy ppr2 .
2NOV - Geog .
8NOV - SS .
10NOV - MT ppr1 and 2 . [retook , cause im not satisfied w/ results :(]
12NOV - Phy and Chem ppr3 .

BANGBANG ! thn its shopping after Olevel till 18Nov (:

18NOV - PROM NIGHT ! :D

how excited ! well , there's still obstacle for me to go through before reaching prom night .

im gonna be so worn out ! :(

its okays , i knw it'll be worth ! :D

ZHENWEI: hi darilyn! (: i dropped by. heh heh.
:: welcome :D

With Lovez ,

DARILYNblackRszxc .

i've finnally understood ...

This is one of th best photo from yesterday's ice skating trip , mayb its cause of my hair ^^.

it was awesome , i can swear upon everything else . you've gotta try :)

met up with guowen , clement , seiteck , chunsiong & tingfang :3 @ H.mall .

ate and MRT down to Kallang leisure park for iceskating ,

however it was rather pack , so arcade . thn wanted to go bowling .

Hmm , thn nevermind . damms pack . so went to ice skating instead .

falling was thn necessary , but it was fun (L)

(hais , faimly doesn't even care D':)

play till time was forgotten , gossip & smiles arrived .

and i really forgotten all my worries in th few hours .

pictures are up on facebook now ^^v

i'll promise to go out with you guys again after o's . and make it a promise alrights ! (:

Today was terrible , :(

lesson was alright , went for th test & home .

was mad @ mum , until this phone call came .. tears went down my eyes uncontrollably .

mayb i was too emotional , i bet thy feel worse thn me :'(

eveything came too suddenly . pls remember us , i'll never forget you .

so i thgt for hours , and finally decided to type and text some peeps .. this is wht i type :

"life is rather brittle , you'll never expect wht life brings you th next day ' yesterday is history , tmr is mystery . today is a gift , thts why its call th present .' and humans is greedy , so we'll relatively accept everythings tht come in our way . whether good or bad . Like i've said , life is expecting th unexpected , so turn to your friends now or simply give thm a text on how you feel about thm , or just a simple 'i love you' , so tht thy'll know how you feel and you may even light up their day "

so think about this , and pick your phone up now (:

Jinyeegenie !: Welcome. :D
:: ^^

PEARLYN: Haha relink-ed. Sorry a
little late though. Prelims week, kinda busy. :)
:: its okays (: thanks :D

With lovez ,

Darilyn BlackRszxc .