TGIFxoxo

Its been such a long week this week .
I'm glad it's finally over , managed to get my part of the project (actually first part) done after so many weeks . Just gonna wait for approval ~

Things hasn't been well this week , roads have been rocky . But im still glad I have him , who will always be by my side no matter how annoying I am . I'm really really glad .

Some people just have to bring you down despite all you have done . I'm not saying I'm perfect but I'm trying . Why can't you ?

My wishlist and my buy-for-boyfriend's list has been increasing these days and I'm still trying to survive with my only weekly allowance for everything . Yes , everything . I have no extra income and it sucks . JOB PLEASE .

Back home after heading over to baby's for dinner and out with them 2 brothers for shopping . Yes shopping . Hahah ! Cute . Meh I'm gonna prepare for bed . Ciaosz !

Oh ! Happy belated birthday to tessa ! And sissy's late bday present for meeee ^^ 

19th

Its exactly a week since my birthday passed .

Lets wind back .
Baby fetched me over to hdl hotpot @ clark quay for lunch before heading back to his house and surprising me with an ice cream cake . Then off we go for GD's one of a kind world tour ! Needless to say it was the best birthday ever ^^ However good things always happen in a flash and my good birthday times happened within a short span of 9 hours :( then I'm back to 5 days of major project and PR1 .

Couldn't even get to rest well :(

Headed down to pasir ris on Friday after short dinner with baby . Met up with famz and headed off the god brother's 21st birthday . The place , the setting , the companion was really awesome . Back home at 11 plus and I was worn out :(

Out to baby's today , and impromptu date for prawning with wh as well . Sadly we were 'scammed' . Meh , good experience . Now I'm gonna head to bed and have a super awesome sleep ^^

Xoxo ♡♥

All it takes was just a smile

Some people needed to be scolded to wake up .
Some people needed to be hurt to wake up .

But all some people need was just recognition .

After months and years of complaining . After reading all those posts and pictures about how great our parents are , I was giving in to reality . I know I love them . But what I hated was how they treated me . I was devastated . I was dumbfounded . "How could they ever treat me this way ?", "My life was unfair." , "my life sucks ." Minutes passed after and I was regretting all of my actions . But things like this just keeps repeating itself . I've always been out late , hating whatever I have . Trying to avoid everything ... But the only thing I've never realized throughout all this was ,

They miss me .

Today , like few days back , the haze is hitting hard . I thought "are they all alright? They're working in the haze without mask. Please keep them safe cause I love them" .
Dad came home feeling very tired whereas me , was feeling so lazy and stressed that I'm home . I was so mad he ordered me around . Then he started joking to us and suddenly , he smiled at me . I was shocked cause it's probably a few years since I saw him smiled , at me . I stared hard at him and thought to myself "his weary eyes from working all day , he lost a tooth which I didn't even noticed cause I haven't been seeing him . I failed my duty as a daughter , so much . Mum has been asking for hugs the last week due to strength , and I wasn't sure of how to give it to her . I'm a loser"

Dad told me to help him with his phone , to insert songs into his memory card , to come home for dinner , to stay at home . Mum told me to be home for dinner , to stay home . All these cause they miss me . And they wants to spend more time with me but Yet all I thought was that why were they restricting me from going out .

I ran back to my room and cry so badly .

So I went to get some chores done before hiding back into the room as I can't control my tears . A knock came on my door , "hurry out to finish your dinner. Its gonna turn cold" "ok" that's all I can say , ok .. before the tears fall off my face .

I'm sorry for everything dad . I'm sorry for everything mum . I love you 2 ♡