Double trouble

I feel so unfair . I don't know how I should put it . Am I doing something wrong somewhere ? Why do I have to endure all these nonsense and suck up to all these ?? Why do I have to be the one doing everything . Can't you do something ??
It seems as thou I'm the only one fighting the battle for us . You're not doing anything about them and blame me when they're wrong ? Fuck this shit man . I get treated like maid everywhere . I hate it . Alot . From young . From home . Now teens . Now school .

Ya fuck my whole fucking life k ?

I wish someone would fucking stand up for me . Not sit there and pretend . Stand up for me . Tell me I'm worth it all . Shut them up . Speak up for me . Someone ....

Record breaking days

So Thursday was the last week of school for the week and shaun booked out . As usual , supper with 'em . And midnight movie (The great gatsby) from like 12.10am . And I reached home at like 3am :/

And today , vesak day . Woke up and head off to albert Street with mummy , sistsy and bro . Bought boyf his long wanted ipod touch (most expensive gift i bought for anyone ever ! Record) before cabbing down and prepare for bbq @ cheryl's . And yupp . Bbq started at like 9 ? Hahah . Ended at 12mn . Uno-ed before deciding to head to prawning . Sp vroom vroom . Me in baby's car while wh and evelyn head off in bh's car . Tailgating is so difficult man :( And yupp . The prawns were celebrating vesak as well . So off we go to bh to lepak . Left at 3.50am . And so , time is 4.25am . I just alighted from bby's car (record maximum) . And daddy don't even know I'm not home . I'm so.screwed man . Fmlll :(

Took off from work as well . Would have died if I work tmr . Hahahaha . Oh and did I mention the bbq stuffs cost more than 200bux . For just 6 people . Woahh . Craziesy shit man . Hahah . (Record for most expensive meal) also we like wasted alot of food . Sigh

So tired . Good night ...

-edited at 15:32-
Just woke up . Record breaking again . Whoops

TwoMonths

Its been so long since I posted again . And you probably guessed it right . I'm here to rant my whole entire life .

Everything have been good . No matter how bad school is . It still beats staying home . I doubt I'll ever be happy here again . Honestly . Sometimes I just wanna run away and deny that fact that I am useless . I wanna prove it to everyone . But life sucks . I'm useless like this . I'll never excel . I'll never be better than anyone . Not even myself .

As the clock ticks , you find yourself reminiscing about the past . The times when you were well like by everyone cause you're a kid . You had no worries . You had nothing to bother about . And luck , as well , were never an issue to you .

But I was cursed . You set the curse on me . I used to think my luck will get better . Maybe not anymore , cause you finally let the cat out of the bag . You set this curse upon me . You set a curse on your own blood . Me . Does it even make any sense ?

They say I could count on you for everything . But what should I do when you set a curse on me . Who should I trust anymore ? I lived life in darkness and fear for years . And the thoughts of wanting to be the best held me through it all . The only motivation I had in my whole life .

You laid your fingers on me many times thinking I've gone bad . But never once did you ever think how much I did . Just wanting to make you proud . None . You probably won't know how much it hurts ..

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