heartfelt .

i've been taking care of granny for daysssssss .
i've been taking care of bro for dayssssssssssssssssssssssss .
i've been cooking , cleaning , buying , preparing .
i've been waking up early in th morning by sist damms alarm .
i've been getting such less sleep tht im sick .
i've been sicks for days and no doc can cure .
i've been ensuring things at home is fine .
i've been locked at home .
i've been cancelling time with friends .
i've been sacrificing my rest , my time .
i've been too busy to do holiday homework .
i've been too busy to be preparing for cca.
i've been too busy to be bothering abt other stuffs .
i've been washing and hanging clothes for days .
i've been treated like maid rather thn daugther for YEARS !

WHY ??
sist can go out , i cant .
sist can go camp , i cant .
sist can skip doing chores , i cant .
sist can say she's tired and not do everything , i cant .
sist can stayover , i cant .
sist can reach home at midnight , i cant .
sist can sleep late wake late , i cant .
sist can sleep like fark , i cant .
sist can be treated lik missy , i cant .
sist can be shouting at me for nth , i cant .
sist can say "im sick" and do nth , i cant .
sist can be trusted , i cant .

whts th freaking point ?
my life is like a cage . LOCKED IN .
whtever i do doesn't make thm happy .
i cant even take a rest uhs ?
i cant even take med whn im sick uhs ?
i cant even watch a show IN PEACE uhs ?
i cant even make a proper phone call uhs ?
i cant even stay in my room and not do anything uhs ?

im freaking pissed off , freaking tired .
freaking headache & giddyness is taking over ...
now thr's COUGH , still not enough ...
i totally hate being middle child , MORE LIKE MAID .

im really really tired , i knw you all cared .
but you care will nvr belong to me ...
think abt it .. how long was it whn you all show my ample care ?
i need my rest ....


DARILYN ,
somehow this family doesn't have a 'me' in it . i shld've knwn ...