483 , agony

I swear it sucks , to be the fucking middle child . It fucking sucks to know there's not a single soul you can totally count on at home . It sucks to know your dad ain't always home , your mum never listen to you . It fucking sucks to not receive any fucking attention at home . It fucking sucks to know that despite having 3 kids at home you're the one th chide most , you're the one they boss most and you're th freaking one they never notice most . Elder one's graduating , bright future . Youngest one's having his psle , and I'm not fucking near anywhere .

I'll be frank , I hated home .
I never wanted to reach home early , I got scoldings . Then I went gone earlier , I got piles of chores to do . I worked and study , just to avoid home . Went out with boyf and friends just to avoid home . Family quarrels almost everyday . No one in the house even really respected you . I fucking hated this . I even planned running away from home with my friends . But I was gutless . I was worried about my family .

Times and times , I really tell myself I want to change . And i'm tryin my fuckin best . I woke up early cause I couldn't sleep but mum just had to give me the "chores list" . If I didn't wake up early , she'll make a din . What the fuck is wrong with this fckin world ?! Asked to do this , and do that . Been telling you guys I fucking cannot watch my FCKING show of you guy keep on with th fucking loud voices . Not once not twice but ample time and you got the fucking cheek to scold me ?! To fuckingly ask me to scram to my room ?! So I said there wasn't any fuckin table . You said you bought a fucking table for me . Since the fuck when you saw so ?! You fuckingly said that red table was for bro -.- so fuck it . I remember fuckig clearly asking you for that fucking Jibai table on 4feb when boyf can over on cny -.- knn , you still tell me th table is too small and ask me to take th other table instead -.- now you tell me this sort of fucking shxt ?! Seriously , I don't know what the fuck are you thinking about .

I fucking wanna respect you , but you yourself is not giving me the fucking chance to -.- you said you've been tolerating me , you know me fucking well , you said you'll love me more . FUCKING BULLSHXT ! Stop fuxking vent your anger on me -.- I'm not your puppet , I'm your daughter for your fucking info -.-

I'm trying to treat you well , stop fucking piss me off -.-